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By some miracle I’m staying in school, I just made the grade! Anyway, these were all easy modules. Quite sian also cos its going to get tougher by alot. Not really sure what else I need to complete as well. Going down to school to find this lady to help me plan out my next 1.5 years. I can’t believe it, I’m actually going to be working an a final year project.

Sometimes when I escape life changing failures by a hair’s breadth, I can’t help but feel like if I don’t take a fall now, it’ll be worse in future. Still, thanking God for everything isn’t out of place to say. Quite happy la, Wonder what the next sem has in store for me.

Its 0244 and I’m still up debugging this project. Now I’ve just fried my 6th LCD screen. I think I shall give up this stupid feature. Its just not worth the money and trouble. wah lau! This after like.. so many spoilt already. Going to head to school early early.. blah. I don’t know what to do now. I’m not going to do so good man.

Oh well, its one of those long nights again where I feel sleepless and unsettled. Shall do some task organizing for myself so I won’t panic or miss any deadlines.

• CS2106 - Lab 4 (due: 26th March 2008 - 2345hr) (3hrs)
• CS2106 - Tutorial 6 (due: 24th March 2008) (3hours)
• EE2001 - LCD program Broke (due: 3rd April 2008 - timetable) {20hrs}
• EE3001 - Final report (due: 3rd April 2008) {15hrs}
• CS2106 - Final Project submission  (due: 11th April 2008 - 2300hr) {4hrs}

And I got 53 for my cs2106 midterm, average is 67 all this after marks have been normalised to 100%. Standard deviation is 17%. hmmm.. So I guess I’m still within the normal bounds. Still, its below average. oh dearie me.

Some random verses as I traverse the book of psalms.

• Psalm 42:5
• Psalm 25:10
• Psalm 34:1
• Psalm 36:7

Honestly, how many of the troubles I face can be compared to what David was facing? haha.. I’m fretting over nothing! I can only look at God’s faithfulness to him and find my life’s stresses abit trivial. Imagine me saying something like this from Psalm 54:2-3

“Hear my prayer, O God; Give ear to the words of my mouth. For exams have risen up against me, And tests have sought after my life…”

Ridiculous I know.. but does Jesus care? I know so, cos he said we does. Still, I can’t help but feel like theres so many things I will never get done. I’m really not liking this studies thing very much but I can’t complain.

Great.. now what am I supposed to do with 4 hours of free time in school? Sigh.. I should be sleeping at home if not for this tutorial I’m having now.

EE2013 is much harder than it seemed at the start. Oh man.. I’m meeting the lecturer tomorrow I hope. This reminds me of the crazy rush each week like CS1102 to produce a working program.

I kinda regret taking the thai music, the matlab and worse, the 2 project modules at the same time. I feel like I forgot how to study.  Its so dreary and unbelievable that school’s already started and I cannot get up to speed like last sem. Maybe its because I don’t know anyone at all in almost all my modules and its so sian to go sch and come back.. Its like the whole day I’m talking to myself in my mind. Haha.. even though there are so many people around.

…is life. Went down to donate with Bernice then her body wimped out at the last moment. Low blood iron! wah man.. so I went to donate alone. It never struck me how big the needles were until now. When I saw it I was like.. WAH.. Thats big. Haha.. wonder why I never thought that before. Anyway I got done with that and then went to school to finish downloading matlab. I’m still coding for tomorrow, have to submit by midnight… wah.. terrible! stupid sudoku solvers.. so many out there still ask us write another one.

Finally, I got my olympus c-5050 back! ahhhh…. I miss it so much! So I took a few photos today. This is the photo of the day! I had lunch with Cheryl and then went to a table to talk about her portfolio as a website and snapped a shot as we talked to YX over skype. a tad dark though. Wasted.

Anyway, I had lab too. Long day.. I got up at 540 to escape the madness of the morning rush.. then I went to school for a 4 hour lecture then lunch, then had lab until 5. So I’ve been up a pretty long long time. Heh..

Its been 3 days since I posted here, somehow thats pretty long for me. Anyways, I have an incredible timetable!

You might think its crazy to split up every module until there’s just one lecture per day but I didn’t plan it like this, it just happened. Still, its quite cool. I’ll be traveling alot alot and also, have alot of time to rest and prepare for each and every session I go for in school. I don’t mind it so much because I’ll be able to concentrate on what I go there for instead of cramming a day with 5 hours of lecture in a row and the like. Everyday starts at 2! except for monday la.. then this week theres an extra lecture at 9 on Thursday.

I ate lunch with Stephanie and her bf Yi Da. I find it so uncommon to find couples like them because they really treat each other like friends like that, plus he looks quite decent. haha.. oh well, I’ll be in the same project group as her and another guy acquaintance I know from JC plus his friend which I don’t know. I hope it’ll be a smooth bit of group work! I don’t take that for-granted anymore.

Lastly, I think it’ll be a tough sem with a very very gentle start. The thai music module had me amused today.. I get 40% just from performances we’re all forced to do anyway! haha.. Then its all quite easy without exam. Supercool.

I’m going to rest rest. I feel really tired all the time even though I sleep. Maybe I shall catch breakfast tomorrow early.

No joy and no satisfaction from the sinful life!

I want to live above the world,
Though Satan’s darts at me are hurled;
For faith has caught the joyful sound,
The song of saints on higher ground.

Lord, lift me up and let me stand,
By faith, on heaven’s table land,
A higher plane than I have found;
Lord, plant my feet on higher ground.

I am resolved to go to the Savior,
Leaving my sin and strife;
He is the true One, He is the just One,
He hath the words of life.

I will hasten to Him, hasten so glad and free;
Jesus, greatest, highest, I will come to Thee.
I will hasten, hasten to Him, hasten so glad and free;
Jesus, Jesus, greatest, highest, I will come to Thee.

As a dog returneth to his vomit, so a fool returneth to his folly.

Proverbs 26:11

Argh! back and back again. Fool is the word. Fool!

“We have become so callus and dulled that reading the word does not even affect us at all anymore” even though the bible is supposed to be “sharper than any two edged sword”. Wah, think really quite jialat already man. I’ve taken his mercy forgranted. Even the sense of conviction and being upset is mercy! And after I ask and get it, I keep needing again and again. This is not the way to live life.

God has been good to me. Honestly I never thought I’d make it without failing anything. I don’t know what to make of it. My cap is still in the red, but it didn’t shift at all.. up or down. I actually passed EE2011! like.. wah man.. Thats impossible.

Name : KWAN YANN HOWE
Matric No : U058802B

2007/2008 Sem 1 Examination for COMPUTER ENGINEERING 2

CAP: 1.85
(CAP computed is accurate based on progress & declaration made as at time of printing.)