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I’m done with 2 big commitments! haha.. Its so nice to get things done.

• Flier is done and sent for printing!
•  Website is done and running! Just waiting for some write-ups and the trailer.

Heh. In a spurt of productivity (well, sort of..), last night I went mad and couldn’t stop working on the website. Thank God I found really great scripts which the author like.. released 1 day ago!! Essentially, the entire page runs on it la.. its a really nifty piece of code that allow for the sliding and popups for video and links. It even links external sites in an iframe! Okay, I shall not bore any more. Below is the flier..

Now I’m off to do some  online assignments. SQL here I come!!

I am totally overwhelmed and out of control of my commitments and time in my life. Maybe thats why I’ve been so listless and down for the past 2 days. I simply cannot finish everything. I’ve spent a couple of minutes committing my time and tasks to the Lord, knowing he’ll take care of me.

I feel like I am less and and less in church even though I’m physically still there. I go for service.. then down to macs to study, spend the crazy non-existent lunch hour practising for another person’s wedding, maintaining things around church and well, eating with whatever time’s left. Spend 3 hours at FBI, I admit its very half heartedly I do it nowadays.

I just totally gave up singing today. I felt like I had to stop doing stuff and sit down to eat so I wouldn’t suddenly shout at somebody or smash something. When uncle Kwai Sang started nagging me about the projector and how it droppped again in the early morn I felt like taking it and smashing it on the floor in front of him and say like “LOL! projector got pwned baby!! wHOOOOOooooo!!!! now we don’t have to take care of it anymore!”. Of course, it sound exciting in the mind. Prob not so great in real life and more stupid when you sit around and think of it. Why, I might as well spend the $1000 buying myself a $400 22″ LCD and use the leftover $600 to get an ipod (got new ones.. wah lau.. temptation).

Its these little things that make me wonder, why am I so busy? What will come of it? Does it really matter? The past few days people have been doing what I usually do alone. I’m really glad in some sense. It makes me feel like I’m not the only one who is able to do all these things (eg. bring and setup the piano, do some maintenace on the computers, sing bass, manage website). I’m so sick of all that. I’m formally releasing my control to God. If everything screws up, its not my fault anymore. Speaking of website, I broke it real bad this time. I can’t be bothered to fix it up now, just trying a rollback to a lower version of wordpress - if it can’t work then forget it.

I want to complain! sigh.. (done: thanks bernice).

I shall go do some variations on the cantata flier that needs to be done by tomorrow and printed for sunday.

I had a funny but wonderful day.

1. Went to church, sermon about spiritual gifts was familiar but still, good listening. I have to go back and hear the end. was totally stoning. Not sleeping, stoning and daydreaming.
2. Had another funny time with Ming Yong and PS. went down for a drink during sunday sch when I actually intended to study at macs. We had a good chat. Makes me feel more realistic and down to earth when you talk to them who have been working for quite a number of years.
3. After that I went back to church for rehearsal.. ended up taking lotsa photos for the cantata publicity. Its tough.. but I hope the concept will come out soon this week.
4. Did FBI.
5. Had alot of things in my head, made some weird choices and statements to various people through the day.
6. Went for dinner with david, cc, mom, dad, dency at a japanese restaurant at vivo.
7. Discovered PAGEONE. Its ultra cool!!! so many design resources.. all sitting there on shelves to read.
8. Tire was completely flat on driving out. Quickly changed tires and got back on the road. Volvo is a wonderful carmaker. Totally idiot proof tire changing stuff.

Yep, that kinda sums it up. I have a lab in the morning, going to ask some questions and try to complete my program. Sigh.. its really so TOUGH. Then after this if i’m not wrong we’re going to program the chip directly! oh man.. so cool.. if only the language and logic was not so hard.

I have to achieve personal holiness. At least, to whatever extent is humanly possible and leave the rest to God. Of course, which effectively means leave everything to God. Then again, some free will is required right? I dunno la.. just know if I don’t do that, I’ll forever be relegated to just doing these mundane technical nonsense in church which contributes, but in and of themselves has no real use/value/purpose. I want to be a part of the ORIGINAL functions of a church. Discipleship and Evangelism. Over simplification? maybe.. but in essence, be directly involved in these two.

For the first time I’m saying it out, discipleship is on my mind: both getting and giving it. Nothing can take its place.. not bible study, not youth meetings. It doesn’t have to be formal but I’m looking to achieve the above before embarking on this thing. I don’t care how long it takes to prepare me.. a third of my life is over, I want the other two to count. How about you?

The projector upstairs has really suffered so much grief and abuse. Lets take a look.. the poor cover is broken in 4 places! sigh..

Made a small thing to stick on the projector so ppl don’t switch off the power while its still cooling down

Tomorrow will be the first FBI session for this sem. One half of me is like quite tired of it actually.. On a slightly related note, Ecclesiastes 5:1 caught my eye the other day because of something which I forgot. Anyway, the verse is still in my mind with regard to service and all. Which leads me to the next point - I think I signed up for too many things but I can’t cut anything out now because its too late

• PS and Angelyn’s Wedding
• FBI
• Cantata Recording (piano)
• Cantata Recording (singing)
• Buck’s site
• Choir for church anniversary

I’ve dropped choir, simply because I will be taking care of the sound that day and don’t want to be flustered after working out problems and sing up there after. I’m almost finishing piano recordings too.. the singing one is what bothers me. As for uncle buck’s site, I’ve almost finished it too.. I’m not happy with it I don’t know why. I have to get a new cable for the mics in church. Totally wasted 2hours in church because one cable spoilt and we had no extra last wednesday. Well well, I have to go rest! My foot still hurts, more constant than usual now. Shall go find doctor soon..

Well, I din go sch today. Its only one lecture anyway, tomorrow I’ll be missing 3 I think. I must so catch up after this. Went around town with bro for lunch with pastor, visited Weihon + wife + kid. Baby’s name is David, man! As if we needed another!! haha… Anyway, David’s really quite a big baby, he weighs in at 4.08kg and has lost some weight due to jaundice (he was sun tanning when we went there). The baby feels more sturdy than usual cos he’s so big.. no fear carrying him. haha.. Anyway, I’ve NEVER carried a baby in my entire life! I want the first one to be my sister’s kid! haha…

Some pictures. As well as one of my bro from behind as we went to the car.

Most of the photos are over at the BFC website, the rest that didn’t make it there are here.. haha..

Here are some full sized ones of my favourites

I did quite alot of stuff today

1. Woke at 1030
2. Got up and went for breakfast
3. Came back for lunch, Chole, yang yang and family came over
4. Went out to see my cousin’s baby
5. Went out with chole and yang yang and ate at New York New York

It was quite a funny time cos we ate a huge burger. Pictures shall follow soon but I’m quite tired to upload. Check out the church site and my bro’s flickr for some photos. Shall I use facebook? nah.. think i’ll leave all my stuff here.

And last but not least, a nice collage.

Well, just back from an extremely long and harrowing ride. It was torturous to be in the backseat of my brother’s car just from the shopping center in johor to home. After sending Cheryl home I could just stretch out on the back seat. I told them I felt like I was in economy class squeezed at the back.

June Camp 2007 wasn’t such a good time of rest. I felt my life simplify just slightly but still felt very fatigued! Other than the camp program, I fished and caught my first 2 fishes, ran on 2 mornings, took pictures at night and slept in the day. I ate a decent amount also, which reminds me to weigh myself.. let me do it before I forget.. Okay, I am now 93.7kg. I gained one while I was there, not too bad eh?

If there was anything I took home from all the messages in the last month by Dr. Innes it would be that the selfish life is the empty life. How true it is in my life. Each time I do something selfish I can just feel myself getting more and more empty and alone as if it wasn’t already bad enough. Also, alot of things he said Ialready knew or agreed with and just had trouple applying it and obeying. Its difficult to abase self and esteem yourself lower than others in every action. Also, my irritation and impatience has always been a defining trait in my character. Although I would differ on the view that it is the same as murder (because then it woud deserve the same punishment, which it doesn’t) I would agree that that is the slippery slope a person does not want to slide down because to say that one would never be able to sink to that level is a statement that is impossible to verify.

On the whole, I feel like I have just warped through a week of my life and came out just the same. Probably just abit more tired. I shall have to meditate on the week. YX is going away this coming tuesday.. so fast! Hmm.. photos when I can put them up. My bro took some fantastic HDR shots.