I think I did it when I microwaved an egg and covered it thinking it would prevent a mess - obviously I was wrong cos the explosion was so strong the cover flew off.

That was utterly unrelated. Anyway, I had a few fruitful talks this week. Daniel on Sunday, pastor on most other days and Jonathan today. It was not really the talks or its contents that were edifying, it was the realizations about myself that I gained after thinking about what they/I had said and viewing firstly in the context of being a church member and then in the context of supposedly being bible believing Christians. When I look at these two, really the Christianity I live is so shallow, as with so many others around. How much we obsess about people around us really suprised me greatly and I became very conscious of it in my own talk and in others this week. Surely when we are judged we stand alone.

Lastly, although I’ve been with people this whole week, I’m feeling quite lonely already cos theres nothing much to do with myself. Now its the end of another week and I’m just.. here. I really want to go out lim kopi but theres nobody to go with me. Sitting down and doing some reading would be nice.. I keep falling asleep when I read myself, even after 3 chapters of the bible I’m so tired I doze off sitting outside the house where its bright and green with all the plants.

William seems to be busy. Gone are the days where we were all slackers, free at a moment’s notice. Haha.. I wonder if growing up really catches up with you and your friends so much so that its not so simple to just call each other and go out for coffee. Really as one of my GP essay topics put so rightly: youth is wasted on the young.

I’ve decided I want a canon G9 so I’m going to start saving for it. Thats a funny thought cos I can just buy it outright with the money I have. Still, I feel I’ve lost the art of saving. When the money in my bank account reaches a certain (undisclosed) amount I’ll just ask my bro to buy it from the states if the warranty covers it.

Thats all for now. Maybe I’ll sleep early today. hahaha.. who am I kidding..

We need to move man. sigh.. either that or this church need mega major MAJOR reno. The place looks like a wordpress install from my early days. Hacked, patched and jerry-rigged like mad to just survive and get on by to the next day/week/month/year. You should see the amount of cable and re-cable and the amount of stuff running off one breaker. The trunking is all full of cable!! cannot even ‘tamba’ one more inside. Trunking run once, twice, thrice.. like.. this is how the 2 offices are wired up and drawing power.

• A single breaker
  • photocopier #1 (inside office)
  • aunty pat
    • extension #1
      • PC
      • Monitor
      • Printer/fax
      • speaker
    • extension #2
      • fridge
      • microwave
      • boiler
      • fan
  • outside main hall
    • extension #1
      • photocopier #2 (childrens hall)
      • laptop
      • projector
      • speaker
  • pastor’s office (possibly another breaker, but unikely due to the place being one big hall originally. Not supposed to have offices!)
    • extension #1
      • pc
      • monitor
      • printer
      • scanner
      • speaker

Sigh. I was actually laughing at the situation at first when ps opened the trunking to find it full and we plugged 2 multiplugs into the double wall plug. But when I opened the false ceiling to pull the wire through it really wasn’t so funny anymore. I’m not complaining. Sigh, just.. sian. Why people can take ownership of their home.. spend craploads of money on a place that really doesn’t edify anyone (mostly) and has no eternal purpose and value and we as a church cannot take ownership of the church, spend craploads of money on it and make it BEYOND functional.. We are the church.. why does it feel like its just a building now which someone else owns? “not mine what..” kinda attitude. When you spend on the church, you spend on yourself because as all the kids know:

I am the church

You are the church

We are the church together..

Sigh. God, what do you want us to learn before you allow us to move on? Please, admonish us, humble us, teach us, unite us and bless us. I’m just sad to tears.

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This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate in it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success.

Joshua 1:8

This came to me after I washed my face and strolled into my room thinking what I should do with myself. It was told to Joshua by God when he was commanded to go into cannan to take the land. Why do I worry? haha.. clearly practice and knowledge is so far apart regarding knowing and doing God’s will.