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Sometimes I want to rewind to a point in my life and choose not to be where I was. Minutes, hours, days or months.. doesn’t matter.

“What a difference a day makes”

Dinah Washington

How true it is. Hai. Sian man. Should have stayed home and wasted my life away on something else.

You know those flags and stuff you see around at national day? I went hanging them with my brother today.. wha, very xiong man. This is a picture of it before we started.

And the “after” picture will come tomorrow when I get them out of the other camera… Here’s the picture of the banners all done!

This is a picture of my brother tying it up with the wire that made my hand ache so much..

Rest of the photos are here

I think I need some peace and quiet from everyone, even if it means isolation for now. Thank you very much. I’m so tired of thinking and thinking of what to say so as not to sound wrong or get anyone upset. My blog doesn’t match up with my real life? Then maybe you shouldn’t read it or maybe you shouldn’t talk to me and think you know me like you used to. Choose one, don’t come disturb can already. I hate this kinda cryptic message to a certain so and so kinda thing crap but I mean, what does anyone expect me to do? What? Like what man? Tell me and I’ll do it..

Anyway now I’m kena-ing from everyone. Sigh. Sucks to be me.

Going to send my aunty for checkup for a lump on her chest. Probably going to take a whole morning. Maybe lunch with my sister and bro, maybe after that I can come back and continue packing my room up. This is making me pretty fed up already.

7am - Went to church ultra early in the morn because Dency was going that way to school. Went there, wiggled the Bb and it got unstuck just like the piano tuner said! Anyway it needs alot more wiggling before it gets permanently unstuck

8am - Left car at church and took bus to temple there and ate breakfast with Zegang then went to his house and slacked

9am - Listened to Benny Ho again, 4 down, a few more to go in the series. Found out he’s from FCBC! haha.. ops.. his expository is quite sound as far as I have heard.

12noon - Went back to church and drove the 12 air mattresses to Josh’s place. wah.. its like.. maybe 20-30kg? goodness.. had to carry it up to his place

2pm - Ate lunch with josh, jan and zg. They’ve been married twice already.. haha.. 3rd times the charm!

3pm - Pick Dency

4pm - go YX’s house and filddle with some midi stuff. Wanted to input the whole piano score but the Saffire LE won’t output it! RAH! I think I’ll just have to ask Eunice to play it for me and I’ll record it once through

8pm - Go Sandra’s house. Watched deal or no deal while they played sudoku (supposed to be tuitioning la!)

1030pm - Home after some fries and ice cream with YX.

1159pm - finished this blog post! (its still 27th! argh! I’m going to quickly hit the publish button!)

Have you ever felt like reading and listening were no good and you can’t get anything in your head although you really wanted to? I feel like that now. Anyway, I’ve been listening to Benny Ho’s Workshop on the beattitudes one at a time.. I promise I’ll upload it! Its a really good exposition (up to the 3rd one at least) with such real application. I think poverty of spirit, mourning over sin and meekness are all missing from my life. What do you do when you realise that? haha.. Sigh.

Does Romans 7:20 really mean what it means? of course, must read in context la.. Romans 7:13-25

So interesting, Romans 9:17-18 talks about a question I had last time about the Pharaoh and how he had no choice when God decided to harden him to show his power. Romans 9:19 basically says “Wha! but thats not fair! how can any man not do what God makes him do?” and then Romans 9:20-33 is the long reply that is summed up as “God can do whatever he wants because he is God” Sounds mean but honestly quite true. If I made a nice model and decided to squash it I would have every right to do so.

Okay, other than the Focusrite Saffire LE

I bought a pair of earphones today.. goodness, they just sound so great! A pair of these MylarOne X3 earphones are relatively cheaper than anything that produce the same sound quality and insulation. Its so quiet in these earphones that you can’t hear anyone talk once you put them on and have some music coming out of them. The great thing about such a high amount of insulation is that it allows you to listen to your music at very much lower levels than normal so you don’t spoil your hearing. Here are some pictures..

This is turning out to be a long night after the previous 2 posts. Was just reading a blog I used to go to when I was still exploring the monetization of my online activities. He’s 35 in november and has hit his target of being his own boss by 35 when he started his own company in march this year. Its an SEO company with some web development stuff mixed in. He’s really good at what he does and has worked in amazon and microsoft in departments very similar to what he does in his own time. Considering he earns about just less than 1000USD a day from all his online activities combined, is that mad money or what? I mean.. Thats like about 30k USD, roughly 46000 SGD at the conservative exchange rate of 1.56 a month. Is that what life is all about? What would you do with 46k a month?

I admire him in a way for being so focused and hitting all his targets. Yet, I wonder if my life would ever mean anything to live like this. To devote every resource to create more resources to throw back into making more resources to spend on yourself. I’m really freaking out when I think about my future.. or “mirai” as it is in japanese. The honest fact is that I do want to earn. At the same time, I don’t want it to consume me. Money is like this monster you feed and grow and keep close to you and try to balance the feeding and growing with the risk of it growing so big it totally eats you up.

Where do I go and what do I do? When will I know and who’s going to be there with me? I see no job in my future, my skill sets are too shallow and diverse.

Anyway, I cleared out my table somewhat. In preparation to study study study. I’m going to sit down and set some goals for my life. Maybe in the next hour or the next day. Short and long term.

Woke up at 830 and went for breakfast with William so I could pick up his bike and go cycling with Bernice. The bikes were abit too hard to ride for her so in the end we cycled only to tamp to buy some guitar strings, eat, then dropped off the bikes (mine and William’s) back at his place and then took mrt down to the peninsular plaza place with lotsa guitar shops. I bought that little peg that holds the bottom of the folk guitar strings and a set of strings home to make my only guitar playable again then went to eat lunch at adelphi at cafe divine again!

Me and William have decided to go busking. haha.. shall go to esplanade library to photocopy some fake books and play some old old songs. I’ve got some pictures.. Bernice got a piece of jelly at tm.. Its the same color as her bag! haha.. and I saw some incredible guitars at davis guita, opposite peninsular plaza. There’s one in the shape of a heat hawk and another in the shape of a rifle! haha.. Got doraemon and all also.. incredible.