ThisCowIsPurple.com

I’ve been doing many things which mostly consist of school related stuff. Just went for RT at the wrong time.. haha.. thought its 4pm like Sunday but its actually 6pm so here I am back home trying to squeeze in some work and at the same time scan in a roll I just finished. This roll is speacial, picked it up at sungei road.. didn’t think it would be exposed but it actually is!! Hallf expected that so I’m not so suprised… almost thought its not my roll when I went to collect.  haha.. so here are my photos.. overlapping photos of this guy’s daughter.. or some small kid which I do’t know who.. shall upload some later. Basically the whole first half are double exposures.. heh, interesting. Okay! back to computer networks and economics!

..am I?

Well, I’m like buried in crazy work. I’m half thinking its cos I was a little slack. Still, it didn’t look so much when I was slacking. I shall be off to sleep now so I can get up early. Planned out my part of the project but still quite lost as to how to execute. Jialat. My mind can’t be bothered about everything else in my life. Its just constantly thinking about project and FYP. haha..

Its been really a great week (despite all my complaining), I’m not sure why I think so looking back. Maybe its been a nice day thats why. Started out quite slow because I was so so tired from sleeping late for no good reason. I have comitted to sleeping earlier before but I guess its a cycle that you continuously sleep late because the body clock is confused. Had a nice time with the young guys during discussion although it was pretty one way.

I just went thru my photo of the day post category. I must say.. I think I like more of my olympus shots than the Canon G9. At the same time, alot of good shots were taken with the  G9 too..  hmm.. dunno la, I don’t think i’ve found the magic way to handle it yet. Trying in-camera desaturation and muting of colors. Think it give my photos a muted, more somber look.

I just came back from a run too. My knee feels weird and I hope I don’t break it so soon or anything like that, ended up walking. Hello, I need some running buddy! How come all so busy and missing? Shall go shower now that I’ve cooled down.

I’m having the feeling I get when I cannot fix something. Also because there are outstanding tasks that I cannot accomplish. I feel like my degree is a fake and I’ll graduate without knowing anything real and concrete so whats the real point? Get a pretend degree to get a job that’s unrelated? Just doesn’t sound like a logical plan to me. Anyhow its just a couple of insurmountable tasks thats getting to me.

1. Produce some tangible work for FYP report and presentation
2. Finish Assignment due tomorrow
3. Finish some mad Java programming

Its like 3 things only and I can spend days on just trying to do somethin gfor #3. I just found out about #2 yesterday and #1 is just.. I have no idea what to show my prof. Not to mention the quiz that had no anouncement but everyone seemed to know about on monday. I kinda hate studying all of a sudden and want to quit. Abit worse than year 2 man. K la.. going to go out already. Better go shower. Feel like just sleeping and don’t hand in assignment.

Oh last thing thats very annoying is my G9 has been problem since day 1. Now it cannot focus propelrly. I’m over-fed-up already. I don’t think there’s a word for it actually. Over-fed-up will have to do for now.

And the Sohs just left my place. Wah, feel terribly tired and all after getting up halfway last night and after this morning’s FBI. Things are going to be hanging for quite a while in my life and I’m going to let it be. Going to seek out some people from the past to see where my future probably ends up.

History just repeats itself and we don’t have to look very far to have a peek into the future.

Looking into the far future just seems quite daunting. Thankfully, I only have to make one choice at a time.

Life doesn’t exist in binary.. on or off, 1 or 0, true or false, right or wrong. Its a dreadful way to live.

I need the peace to quit. I know I won’t get it but I think its my turn to give up and take a rest. I wish I could pity myself, tell myself I deserve it or just be escapist, let myself be and remain inert, indifferent, uninterested. Finally after so long in the cooker and telling people they belong there since God has in a manner allowed this to happen.. I think I’ll quit being in the cooker. I still believe it but have no will to carry on. Maybe I have been grossly mistaken about that and the cooker isn’t the only place to be. Don’t talk to me anymore. Anyone. I am not interested and refuse to be anymore. I am going to pretend nothing is happening. Its just saddening. There is no crusade for truth here. Just mere men in their flesh on every side.

I will not be.. discouraged from my own walk and maybe for a while, I’d like like to take the hand of my precious Lord, walk with him and cry to him. Listen to him and talk with him. Perhaps when he straightens me out, then I’ll be ready to face men again.

For everything I’ve been able to enjoy so far in life.

The gift of photos..

Went to school and got myself registered at DSI then I dropped off film today. The lady who did my paperwork was this pretty, feels and looks young but you know she’s not so young kind (maybe 30s?) and very soft spoken. Had a semi-big rock on her left ring finger. Kinda reminds me of CK’s wife minus the rock.

I’m collecting my pictures on Friday after school, just in time for the weekend. $11 each roll is relatively cheap. Actually its not that expensive to shoot fresh film. A roll or two a month is about $20? Hmmm. I expect it to decrease due to decreasing consumption of film as the exams come. Of course, it could go the other way too due to stress. haha.. I have some ideas for the next roll of film and beyond already. Would like my work to be a little more value add to my own and other’s lives.

This was posed..

Today’s an early rest day. Shall take a walk once my parents come back. Pick up some printed photos and work on something for my mom who has been working so hard.

One word sums up the agenda and notes man – “EPIC”. Its got enough material for at least 4 movies.. Okay that was a arbitrary number I admit. Anyway, whats not arbitrary is that I just walked 8.29km! To William’s place to hand him present and then back again. Quite far loh.. took 2 hours. A feat that deserves “EPIC” pasted all over it too. Last EPIC I promise.. just one more: Well, EPIC in progress. Me and YX have been together for quite a while now that it raises some eyebrows from my friends. When we can make the church people raise eyebrows then our relationship reach EPIC status already.

I’ll be back! In a couple of minutes.. Shall write one not so epic post in a while but still, a sizeable thing I expect.

Well, its been a great time here in the states. Other than the usual galavanting around shopping and sight seeing, its also been good to spend time together as a family. I feel abit detached missing what’s going on at home, esp with yx  but thats okay, this doesn’t happen very often anyway.

I’ve enjoyed everything so far. Its just bordering on tiring but activities are quite slow and spaced out so its a good rest la.Went to the grand canyon today. It was stuffed with snow. Snow snow snow everywhere, so much so that playing with snow was almost as great as seeing the grand canyon. The wind was not blowing so I just wore a single shirt and pants and spent the whole day out in the snow and sun and it was warm. The canyon was so BIG. Of course, it IS the grand canyon la. So it really huge.. We took a train up and it was nice. Shall do a big post on the whole holiday for myself to look at when I get back..

I think I’d be able to stay here for a long long time if yx were here.. hahaha.. cos I just feel so far away. Was thinking this might just be what its like to miss someone. I don’t really know what thats like but I wonder how we managed 6 months away from each other. A week is terribly long already.

Just a quick look at what I remember quite clearly over the last few days.

disneyland, the Wicked musical, grand canyon, seaworld, church, smashed my G9.

Well, the G9 is a simple story.. the camera slipped off the gorillapod I bought onto the ground. My circular polarizer is like dented quite badly. Lensmate is fine (other than being swept onto the floor by cinderella a day before.. long story..) The lens assembly seems jarred out of place and the lens cannot extend or retract. I dismantled the whole thing and I can’t seem to set it right just yet, can’t understand the mechanism. Oh well.. there are SO MANY SCREWS, so sian to put it back together again after taking it apart. Tragically, the camera I got for uncle David is like.. not really working. Its cosmetically perfect but not working. hahaha.. I’ll have to split it open to repair.. I suddenly have no mood to do it now with my camera like that so it’ll have to wait a little while later. Can’t stop thinking about my camera. haha.. but being sian is just a waste of time.. so I’ll get it FIXED.. if not I’ll just buy a new lens assembly for a hundred USD and put it back together. at least I’ll save the hundred over labour charge.. Oh yeah, one more disgusting thing about opening it is I suffered many hundred volt shocks from the very very large capacitor in the camera.. Its like.. rated at 330V! ouch.. haha..

I’d like to put up some photos but its so painfully slow its not worth it.. net in the dorm is also erratic and slow and only in my bro’s room so.. wait till I get back. Shall weed out stupid photos first then upload. My minolta has been seeing tons of action.. here’s a shot of it in the snow. hahaha.. I used 3 rolls already I think.. probably not going to do any more.

Oh well.. I’m going to be sleeping soon. talking to yx now! haha.. managed to use gtalk to video call. so awesome. Goodnight/morning one and all!

The plan for today..

Started running again.. embarassing pace. Going out  with cheryl later in the evening for dinner then wait for the other cheryl to come back from japan. All with YX. Did I forget to mention that? I’ve been so quiet and all these few days. I wonder what I’m thinking.