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Had dinner with Ruiyi, Shirley and the Cherns at sakae sushi. Haha.. I think Ruiyi is quite funny.

Psalm 96:9 - Worship him in the splendor of holy attire! I always thought it meant in the splendor or GOD’s holiness. When it really means (i think) is to worship him with our being holy. Of course.. his holiness covers us.. so its still his holiness.. but you get what I mean.

Going to find all the drivers and format the craptastic vista machine I’m using now. It’s slowed to a crawl!! >:(

I’m quite glad I’m abit busy these few days. Packing up the house, mounting projector, moving pastor’s stuff. Its all been whole day activities. Had supper just now with ppl after prayer meeting. Spent the night running cable with ps upstairs, both the VGA and the power.

We need to move man. sigh.. either that or this church need mega major MAJOR reno. The place looks like a wordpress install from my early days. Hacked, patched and jerry-rigged like mad to just survive and get on by to the next day/week/month/year. You should see the amount of cable and re-cable and the amount of stuff running off one breaker. The trunking is all full of cable!! cannot even ‘tamba’ one more inside. Trunking run once, twice, thrice.. like.. this is how the 2 offices are wired up and drawing power.

• A single breaker
  • photocopier #1 (inside office)
  • aunty pat
    • extension #1
      • PC
      • Monitor
      • Printer/fax
      • speaker
    • extension #2
      • fridge
      • microwave
      • boiler
      • fan
  • outside main hall
    • extension #1
      • photocopier #2 (childrens hall)
      • laptop
      • projector
      • speaker
  • pastor’s office (possibly another breaker, but unikely due to the place being one big hall originally. Not supposed to have offices!)
    • extension #1
      • pc
      • monitor
      • printer
      • scanner
      • speaker

Sigh. I was actually laughing at the situation at first when ps opened the trunking to find it full and we plugged 2 multiplugs into the double wall plug. But when I opened the false ceiling to pull the wire through it really wasn’t so funny anymore. I’m not complaining. Sigh, just.. sian. Why people can take ownership of their home.. spend craploads of money on a place that really doesn’t edify anyone (mostly) and has no eternal purpose and value and we as a church cannot take ownership of the church, spend craploads of money on it and make it BEYOND functional.. We are the church.. why does it feel like its just a building now which someone else owns? “not mine what..” kinda attitude. When you spend on the church, you spend on yourself because as all the kids know:

I am the church

You are the church

We are the church together..

Sigh. God, what do you want us to learn before you allow us to move on? Please, admonish us, humble us, teach us, unite us and bless us. I’m just sad to tears.

Writing a web application to schedule church service schedule as an exercise. Its going to be my first! Think it’ll take up my entire holiday. haha.. It’ll be so fun.

YX is staying here!

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So near yet so far..

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This says it all (with strongs numbers).

This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate in it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success.

Joshua 1:8

This came to me after I washed my face and strolled into my room thinking what I should do with myself. It was told to Joshua by God when he was commanded to go into cannan to take the land. Why do I worry? haha.. clearly practice and knowledge is so far apart regarding knowing and doing God’s will.

Qala hosting is a stupid pos, a complete waste of productive time. I’m going to take it easy and rest.

T’was quick.. the chicken rice chilli was still as deadly as ever, except that it took quite alot of it before I even felt the hotness. The aunty tell me if I didn’t think it was hot I very “li hai”.. haha.. which led me to realised the chilli hadn’t changed.. it was just my tolerance was even higher now.

Walked around the school to look at the changes and new things while I waited for her to be done with students and work. It felt so sterile and cold. Even worse were the teachers and HOD ppl who kept asking me who I was cos I refused to wear the stupid visitors pass thing. I also specially picked out the most shabby presentable clothes to go back in matched with my faithful $2 slippers from the 1.99 shop so long ago because I was feeling abit anti-establishment.

In line with my current thoughts about what I should do with my life, I now think that teaching is getting more and more irksome and unpalatable as a job and as a lifestyle. While the fun of teaching and interacting with students used to outweigh the not so great parts of teaching, Its beginning to tip the other way now. The social environment, being required to fall in line, being politically correct amongst staff - esp superiors just portrays an extremely oppressive environment to work in for me. She was telling me during the debriefing for their practicum they were told there were a few things that they didn’t do so well and among that was “not greeting HODs”. I was like.. “what?? GREET FOR WHAT?” hahaha.. sigh.. why are some people’s ego so fragile.. never greet also will feel sad one. I was talking at the corridor on the way to her dungeon room for practicum techers during recess time and this teacher gave me this deathstare. Haha.. Sigh.. bernice said I was loud.. as I always am. Haha.. sigh. She told me about this teacher that used to be very passionate while we were there. Now she quite visibly doesn’t care at all. Thats about 10 years? hmmm.. weird la. Ppl get jaded so quick.

Of course, as I think about all this I still wonder what God wants for me. I’d like an irreverent working environment skinny on heirachy where I can enjoy my collegues as friends and not just tools to advance my career. Work is fun because of friends.. without friends at work I’d just die. Sigh..

Shall get some overdue wotk done now. I never ceased to be amazed by Singaporean webhosts. Their sloppiness and slowness to upgrade amazes me. I’m not talking about cutting edge, I’m talking about 30 updates ago - released 3 years and 2 months ago in 2005. Sigh. I have to work with this crap.

Eyeing a canon g9 because of all the price drops that have been happening. Probably because the g10 coming out? Honestly, I think my camera is so beat up its gross. Haha.. but it still can be used. Oh man.. one thing I won’t get comfortable with is the lack of a 4×6 ratio.