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Haha.. after countless hours of solitude in school, thinking within myself and not having someone (read: YX) to message whenever I want, it starts wearing down on me. I guess companionship is an important need placed by God to show us our need for him.

I haven’t thought about it this whole month because honestly, it doesn’t and hasn’t bothered me yet that she’s not around because I know she’ll be back. Still, I underestimated how much I’d miss her. I don’t miss her because I pine for her, want to be around her or want to talk to her. I miss her because of all the moments I don’t share with her. Its like, living my life alone again.

I also refuse to fill it up with other things like activities or messaging other people to relieve my aloneness to make myself feel better. I like it like this because I think I need to really really learn how to be be in solitude and not even think to myself and be absorbed in my own thoughts but to think thoughts of God and meditate on scripture. I have this feeling I will go mad before then. haha..

I miss you! Come back really soon…

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