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YX showed me this after I told her ERP become double and got many many more gantries. Its pretty funny.

Great.. now what am I supposed to do with 4 hours of free time in school? Sigh.. I should be sleeping at home if not for this tutorial I’m having now.

Haha.. after countless hours of solitude in school, thinking within myself and not having someone (read: YX) to message whenever I want, it starts wearing down on me. I guess companionship is an important need placed by God to show us our need for him.

I haven’t thought about it this whole month because honestly, it doesn’t and hasn’t bothered me yet that she’s not around because I know she’ll be back. Still, I underestimated how much I’d miss her. I don’t miss her because I pine for her, want to be around her or want to talk to her. I miss her because of all the moments I don’t share with her. Its like, living my life alone again.

I also refuse to fill it up with other things like activities or messaging other people to relieve my aloneness to make myself feel better. I like it like this because I think I need to really really learn how to be be in solitude and not even think to myself and be absorbed in my own thoughts but to think thoughts of God and meditate on scripture. I have this feeling I will go mad before then. haha..

I miss you! Come back really soon…

I SAW A SHOOTING STAR WHILE WALKING HOME. Then I made a wish like a silly boy (of course it doesn’t work la! I did it to amuse myself.) and praised God for his beautiful creation. I wished for peace and harmony between people because it was heavy on my heart.

When I consider the works of thy hand, the sun moon and stars above. What is man that thou thinkest of him who is so unworthy of thy love?

Now I know why there were so many rules and unspoken taboos in church. Because we are too young to handle freedoms and responsibilities and stay clean, pure and “untainted by the world” at the same time. As I went to BCM last year I was taken aback at how many rules there were to the point I almost find it ridiculous. I concluded that it was submission to authority that was the point but no… I now believe it is being as Romans 13:14 said, “make(ing) no provision for the flesh, to fulfill its lusts”.

Tonight was an eye opener for me.. as I see people make poor choices in their conduct and being wise in their own eyes, shedding responsibility for their own action and blaming it time and again on their circumstance (”They dowan to talk to me first!” “You try living my life!” “But he should have…”). This kinda thing from more than one person.

I struggle to think and comment about this it because on the flip side would be judging them without love. I then thought what could we possibly do for them? Nothing. Haha.. really nothing other than to pray and wait for the LORD to work in their lives.

Lastly, I finally concede that what we need is not understanding of the word but obedience. To be servants and not masters of the word.

This is expensive RAM

I just realise I do alot of stress eating.

EE2013 is much harder than it seemed at the start. Oh man.. I’m meeting the lecturer tomorrow I hope. This reminds me of the crazy rush each week like CS1102 to produce a working program.

Haha.. happy now?

I kinda regret taking the thai music, the matlab and worse, the 2 project modules at the same time. I feel like I forgot how to study.  Its so dreary and unbelievable that school’s already started and I cannot get up to speed like last sem. Maybe its because I don’t know anyone at all in almost all my modules and its so sian to go sch and come back.. Its like the whole day I’m talking to myself in my mind. Haha.. even though there are so many people around.