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I’ve been overloaded with things to think about in the past 24hours. I stayed over at darren’s place last night and we spent the time playing metal slug, marvel vs. capcom, talking, slacking around. I had a nice time with him. Its the kind of bond that doesn’t make sense. I understand him to a certain degree which is interesting considering how different we are in background. I can say for sure we are almost totally synced in regards to humor. We didn’t sleep at all then we went for breakfast at tiong barhu and then soccer.

Soccer ended prematurely cos of mud and rain.. so we (ps amos buck’s family me darren benji) carried on to tiong barhu market to eat and spend time together.

Back to the tons of things presented to me today in no particular order:

• It just feels weird to try and dispense an opinion without perfect knowledge of a matter at hand. Notice “perfect” because if not, wouldn’t the opinion be baseless? or rather have a weak foundation? and even with perfect knowledge of the matter, our (un)discerning mind wouldn’t be able to analyse it properly anyway.
• Not all things are revealed to us, so why bother! haha.. don’t think unnecessarily about things which you have no knowledge about and are expressly not revealed like “is there life on other planets?” you get the picture.
• Appalling also, is the idea that people regard their opinion to be the largest/most important/most smart in speech! I think its semi acceptable and natural for a person to say that his opinion doesn’t matter and then his actions say otherwise. But to say “Don’t listen to ppl, listen to me.. lol..” is kinda farfetched even to me. Maybe it was said in jest but still.. haha.. I mean.. I said it in jest to juxtapose the practicality of getting more opinions, but I don’t think the others did.
• The idea of friendships and how its become an investment scheme to put it crudely. Its a gross insult to the concept of love and friendship to expect or rather, demand reciprocation and to guilt people into your selfish emotional needs. You don’t choose your friends, friends choose you, friends are your friends because of what you are. Friends are a reflection of the inner you. Don’t say “my this bunch of church friends rejected me so I go with this bunch of world ones”. It is true they reject you but only because of what you are, not because they purposely don’t like you (I hope). Its not the friends that make the man, but the man that makes the friends. In similar fashion, its not what goes into the body that defiles but what comes out.
• The idea of in-laws and how they become out-laws. Difference in opinions and how everyone thinks their opinion is the biggest (again). Ignorance as the root of abhorrance if theres such a word
• The idea of upbringing and how 2nd generation will follow in the footsteps of first gen. If gen 1 never gets past the mundane quarrels and disunity, expect the next gen to do the same. I see the next generation having fewer disputes and “reaching” the maturity “level” I only had many years after them. How my willingness to exercise grace enabled them to follow and how a young man showed me grace when I didn’t. Its all really related. Our church will never move if the previous generation doesn’t follow Godly principles. Its like some scientist said we are able to come so far only cos we stand on the shoulders of giants that went before us.
• Lastly, I’m feeling off balance abit. The lyrics “Lord I need you.. when the sea of life is calm..” come to mind. After the crazy stuff we went through for cantata it suddenly ceased and died down already.. a false sense of peacefulness sweeps over me. This battle is over but the war wages on. Sigh.

Yep.. some of the things passing through my mind today.

Thanksgiving for the day: For safety as I drove home. I was tired beyond what I was able to stand and I managed to drive all the way back home. I was talking to my self, shouting, singing, listening to music really loud, winding down the windows(this helped alot). It was a crazy 30min. I was really so scared I would fall asleep and I did find my eyes shutting by themselves. I’ll never do this again.

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