Today Was.. Slackness..
Well, I spent the night from 10pm to 10am sleeping. It was much needed from last 3 days of chionging projects and stuff. I got up, watched show and packed my room until about 3pm. I guess I kinda wasted quite abit of time la.. but I really needed to pack up. Anyway, I went down to simlim to buy the mics so david wouldn’t have to.. and then I came back home to have dinner and drove to cantata practise.
Now, the title isn’t referring to my day, but rather.. the practise. It.. was.. slack.. Firstly, it started like.. ultra late. 730 dinner, 8pm start. I came at 750pm and the downstairs just open. The thing started at like.. 820. Next, like so many ppl never come, so many crew never come. Someone din wanna do the full changing of costume and basically stayed in the same attired throughout although it was a major role (I heard the leg got prob.. but.. to the point of can’t change clothes??) no makeup was done at all (only daphne), and any honest folk would say the acting was sub standard for various reasons that so don’t qualify like “its a weekday..” (again.. like.. the youth have holidays la! very stress ah? wanna try being undergrad or not? and if I not stress, wanna try working or not?). Basically the whole thing was a waste of time and a giant farce. Sigh.
I actually heard that there are people who think there are just too many rehearsals and its very ‘xiong’. Wah.. I don’t believe it! I (and the whole music com) was there since BEFORE the cantata was even born until now - Every step of the way! and david was there even before that, writing music and script. People actually have the audacity to think they are spending alot of time! Honestly, anyone helping out now looks like a joke when compared to the amount of pain and effort behind the scenes.
Think about just the songs, each song I’m sure took at least 1-10hours to conceive, about 5-10 arranging, 4hours piano recording, 12hours voice recording, 1-3hours mastering. And after all that, eunice(sorry I single you out) still sits at the piano each and EVERY practise! That inhumane torture la! If it were me I’d go postal and start to kill people already.
Bottom line.. alot are working hard and get their job done EVERY time without error! these things go unnoticed. So unnoticed. On the flipside, well.. its just plain apathy, slackness and irresponsibility. Sadly, its the latter which sabo the former into wasting precious time. Is their time more precious than the others? I don’t know. Worse is that the whole thing not say like. very zai or what.. its like.. still shakey. Everyone has this “oh my role so small, dun come also never mind.” KNS, You dun come ppl have to do for you leh! Thats like.. negligence la!
If you sign up for it, you better be there and get your job done! And if you wished you didn’t sign up for it, don’t do it next time! Whats worse than no help, is unwilling help. Its a pain. Annoyance and pain. The body is a whole lot better without a big leg which shows up and does nothing and worse, gets in the way cos its not doing its job and force other people to do their work, might as well cut it off.
For those who think “wah.. so fierce, I sign up help already still kena scolded” You think God needs your help? Sorry man, you over-rate yourself. If you didn’t notice, he could stage the whole thing without us. Next thing I’ll hear is “okay loh.. next time I dun help already..” Then don’t! cos like.. I really question why you even want to help if such a statement puts you off. Who are you working for? Why do you do it? you pity us ah? We music com every 2 years have to beg for help one.. sorry, again, God will find a way to finish the job, with or without our intervention.
Lastly, after all that. I’d like to say I’m very happy with joel (since he will never read this I can say here) . He’s always there, he’s always learning, he’s got initiative. So much so I’m almost shocked at being so free. I thank God for finally giving me a replacement, not cos I’m tired of my job, but because I am free to do more. Being out there during the invitation (which i think Joel will grow into one day) and being able to sit outside to hear and to truely adjust the sound properly is totally priceless. From the sound room i still remembered seeing the hands on the second night. There were so many that I started to tear, and I was thinking of Luke 10:1-10 and in specific
Then He said to them, “The harvest truly is great, but the laborers are few; therefore pray the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into His harvest.
That summarised it to the letter. I wish I could be out there.. if just for one person to hear and understand the gospel better - but I had to sit inside to take care of the system (which if there was a failure would be even worse.. nobody would hear..). There were so many there but we were faithless and unbelieving.. and we missed out on a great harvest. How many who raised their hands are still lost today? That wrong, is on us. Let us not take forgranted that God will always be there and he will always work.
I feel I’ve gotten careless because Joel’s been covering for me and for that, I think I need to really get back into the game and stop looking so free. I wonder if people think I so free then they also can be so free thats why the whole level of the commitment seems off? Maybe its on me/us. The fact is, I’m really quite free and things still get done. Hmm. I guess you can tell I’m really quite upset but.. I really think its just such a “take for-granted everything will run smoothly” attitude. Lets banish that thought.
November 14th, 2007 at 1:38 am
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