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Well, with the sale of the adjacent property and a few other things going on in church. Our church unity is really on the griller and Satan is working at our hot buttons. With the cantata coming on, I guess its not bad timing, but God’s timing. Tests that will make or break us. If we begin to point fingers and talk behind each others backs, we will very well not need the property as we will just dwindle in numbers and die away OR.. we will just have another church split over what? a silly property and differing opinions on how to acquire our bigger space? Well, doesn’t seem worth it.

One other thing about grace I learned today.. that after I commented about whether you’ve prayed for someone about something that you feel is wrong in his life before saying that person, I think I’ve really missed that out in so many of my judgements. In particular about things that disqualify people from service. Do you just sit in your foxhole and shoot at the person and try to take him down from his post? or do you crawl out into the cross fire, risking being shot by both sides (wah.. this is a good analogy *pats my own back*) and evacuate him to the medics and see how you can HELP him qualify for that post and be blameless to all?

Lastly, sometimes in a body, there exists sickness, injury and gangerene that cannot be remedied. In that case, amputation is usually prescribed to save the body. That is portrayed in Mathew 18:15-19 where believers are told to excommunicate blatant sinners (this is a nice article by a good bible believing church I think). Of course, here is where the body analogy fails. I know its possible to reattach limbs.. but.. you know what I mean. When someone cleans up his act, you welcome him back into the body.

Thats all for now I guess. Got so much more on my mind but i have to sleep… Getting up super early to wakeboard with yx! =>

See what an unsaved person can write. Doesn’t that put ALL YOU JUDGEMENTAL PEOPLE (but thankfully not me) to shame.. haha.. just kidding. Anyway, I’m not linking directly so there won’t be any trackbacks over at his end.

Cakewalk crashed and undid like.. about an hour plus of editing. I think I shall take a break from pastor’s voice..

Am I very boring? I love the predictable in life, can eat the same thing every day for about a year at a time and feel in control in familliar environments. That said, I’m probably just as scared as anyone else at new things but I have more guts to do things that require overcoming of set perceptions in my mind. I enjoy the everchanging situations in a classroom, yet hate to settle into routine. What does that mean I am? I can do.. nothing.. for as long as I feel like usually. And I don’t get bored except at work work work. I wonder how ppl can don’t get bored at work and be excited about other things. I’m quite the other way round.. bored at work and not really looking for any excitement outside. I’m just sad already. I can’t change myself. Whats wrong with that? Nobody can. Especially at somehting as benign as being..

boring.

Well, did up the entity Relationship model for my database module project. I used the normal one.. and just tried to play with the perspective as well as try out a new deep maroon color as a background as a departure from the usual blue grey and pastels. One day this will look so ancient.

I am Home, Home I am.. And before I leave, I want to get some things done..

• List out all SQL queries from cs2102 project and email out
• Look at what I need to do the ee2007 project
• Read lecture notes from ee2010 from the past 5 notes

I think linking people’s post is quite a interesting/scary thing to do. Interesting for me because there are thoughts and perspectives you never realised someone else had or didn’t have. Scary for them cos they are accountable for what they said. In the blogosphere.. its a sin to take down a post to hide something you said cos you realise your stupidity or offensiveness. Its like.. saying you din say something when you really did say it (ie. lying).

Whee.. cleaner is done

edit: I guess this is more in the context of denying something you said rather than content which is offensive or inappropiate for whatver reason. Just to clarify.

Or at least, a while before it. Waiting for the cleaner to be done. The toilets at the music conservatory are soooo nice.. Its like the only decent toilet in the whole of NUS. Air con, no smelly smelly.. toilet paper always stocked. What else can you ask for?

I’m staying over at ZG’s tonight due to a late project meeting and laziness to go home. Its funny that we talked about playing second fiddle too at west coast macs while we were studying. Like, if some super shen web developer cum designer, an ultra geek and another ZG joined church I’d be out of a job. Or rather, I’d be.. less “needed”. That would so be weird. haha.. I mixed the words up for fun in the previous sentence, bet you din notice.

On another note, I was telling ZG how God seems to be quietly working in the background (like the applications in your taskbar) to change me. I feel…like I’m losing my identity. The things which once defined me are looking shaky and not so definite. The bad things at least.. which seem to be my most outstanding traits. I was just thinking if I submit to God enough, Yann Howe would just disappear off the earth.. and what would be left is a copy of what God would like us to be. Of course, that still seems to be a long long way off. The journey is still infinitely long and I tend to take backward steps all the time.

“O to be like.. theeeeee..”

Oh man! Its taken half my life but I have finished my lab report! Sigh.. too slow too slow! Rah! Now I go read up on my 3 projects so I don’t appear like a dummy at the meeting tomorrow.