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Well, I reverted the theme to my trusty blood and sweat one.. Heh.. Turns out the theme wasn’t messing up the posting, it was an errant plugin still living in the pre 2.3 era with some database calls that don’t agree with wp2.3. I shall redesign when I am free.. just as an exercise.

Some quick pics from ps and zr wedding

If you’re reading this.. chances are that you are my friend. Or maybe you are a stalker. But whatever.

Thanks For Being My Friend! 

Aiyah. Just think friends are such an important social need of humans. God made that so we would get together and share each other’s burdens and edify one another I guess. I really appreciate everyone I know and I can’t make a list of people because I will surely miss someone out and I’d really hate to do that because when you do miss someone out it doesn’t feel good.. But then again it makes this message so generic to have no names. No choice la huh? if you think you’re my friend then you’re my friend la.. and I thank you. haha..

Oh man.. I slept 3 hours last night only and woke up at 645 to be xiong di and go pui shan’s new place. I really almost died today. I’m so tired. Long story short, It was a great wedding, I played solemnization with oswald, I took lots and lots of pictures through the day WHICH I HOPE TO GET IN MY MAIL.. Haha..

My blog’s been misbehaving mostly from the backend after the upgrade to wordpress 2.3 and I think only darren knows cos he submitted a comment yesterday. Anyway, the database tables have changed and my blood and sweat theme is going to go into the drain cos Its not exactly very compatible and its really a beast to run. Anyway I want to make something fresh and nice. It’ll be cool to redesign again! everytime I learn something new!

I had a great time with alot of old friends today. One particular conversation held my interest.

“I think sometimes we can’t plan and decide what activities we should involve ourselves in.. So I think its more important to just get your heart right with God and let him lead you in his own way”

That comment probably points me to the answer of what I should cut loose from my church activities.. Its easier said than done though.

Anyway.. I shall go choose an nice mass produced theme for my blog and by the time you read this.. you’ll be looking at it.

Well, its my turn to get emo-ing (in this context describing reminiscing and stuff like that). Though I’d join in and all. Haha.. no la. I’m honestly thinking abit. Its just.. hai. Like.. I don’t know, unspeakable things that only my God understands and though he knows it all he still loves me and I just had the thought that everyone could be loving each other (and/or me) out of ignorance. I mean, seriously, if we knew everything about each other we’d be so grossed out and hypocritical about it all.

Listening to that now. haha.. old song from sec sch. Mononoke Hime. The tenor’s sound is so dark and subdued, nice.

Anyway, I wonder what would happen if everyone decided to like.. “showhand” and just lay everything out bare with everyone else. Imagine the freedom.. and of course, the repercussions from the hypocrites.

Some more from teh same guy. THere’s a clarinet somewhere in the back accompanying..

Sometimes I wonder if I’m the only one who thinks what I think. I know for a fact I’m not cos I see the fruit of these thoughts around me ever so often. Newspapers, friends, relatives.. The truth of the matter is there. How then not to end up in the same state as these people? Somehow I always come back to the “abiding principle” that we really don’t need to think or worry about how we’ll do tomorrow. And that we just have to trust God today, here and now to be right with him in the present and future.. How then can I free myself from these things? I can’t. Its kinda disturbing to place your entire present and future into another’s hands.

“He who holds us in his hands.. has no problems only plans.. he who has control of all.. sees the smallest sparrow fall”

And though I’ve trusted him with my eternity I still don’t give up the present. Half of me wants to cling on to the very idea of these seemingly innocent thoughts.. the other half wants to be free from thinking of all the possible permutations and possible outcomes. Oh man… this brings me to an easier thought life which plays out in my mind all the time which I can reveal to kinda illustrate what I’m saying. Things you see on ally mcbeal and scrubs, the stuff of daydreams.

Darren described me as the hulk. If I could turn green and smash someone when I got annoyed I would. Unfortunately (or fortunately) I don’t do that. Sometimes I do smash people in my head though. Its really hate (and murder) in disguise, trying to justify itself by telling me the person really deserves it and he had it coming. My teeth clench when I think these things and thats usually when I start to notice its like going out of control. Thats usually when I decide to release the anger. *unclench teeth* *think of other things*. Sometimes I release the anger, but the anger doesn’t release me for a couple of hours or even days. Thats really the toughest part of the fight. Letting God get rid of the anger for me.

Well, I’m thinking I should go rest. No mood to work at all! sigh.. MY project is going to be a total wreck.

Shall leave you with one final joe hiashi composition.

Along with some joe hiashi stuff I used to play in band.

Well, went scavanging tonight and got myself something very nice! Along with some other stuffs. Have no time to mess around with it until next may.. how sad.

Cycled quite a distance with that strapped to my back, its really heavy and made my back really hurt.. plus I kept worrying I’d hit a tree and fall down cos of it. I shall say no more.. Guess what it is! Looks like.. a snowboard? uh.. big fly swatter thing? Or how about.. some cosplay prop like this kisame wannabe below?

haha.. okay.. that looks really gross. Supposed to be some japanese anime character. Oh well.. come to my place to find out! I’m going to have to rest soon. Sigh.. I gave up on the project.. just going to concentrate on other stuff and not waste time on it. Wedding and church going to suck up 2 whole days. I’m so dead. boo..

While I do like to keep a record of what I do, its honestly getting abit too.. unspectacular. Its like a daily description of activities. Haha.. like

• 1100-1400hrs: Recording and lunch with david and eunice
• 1400-1500hrs: Walked around whitesands, borrowed library books on color and design
• 1500-1820hrs:Finished up most of buck’s site for real this time
• 1823hrs: find out I have project assesment on monday

Okay, now I’m freaking out. This time the mini project is like triple crazy hard la! I shall now go work on it. Boo… how to finish like this………… die already la.

Anyway, bass sets the finish time at 2hr15min for “Grace Each Day Renewed”. The altos have 1hr15min to do the second pass.. I think this one lose already la. Haha..

Me and yx got up early after like.. 3hrs of sleep (5 for her) after studying at the 24hr macs to go pick up Sandra and study with her at the parkway mos burger. I must say it was a nice time, very quiet and uneventful. The tables were small so I sat by myself and YX tuitioned her half to death. Me and YX rushed around to buy her birthday presents and got done in like.. 15 min. Gave her an early one to chase away the exam blues. After that we ditched her there to wait for her parents and went to pastors place.

Ate at pastor’s place.. nice food courtesy of aunty diana.. the chiken wings were especialy nice. It was so fresh and hot theat the oil squirts out and burns you. haha.. all the fingers and mouths burnt! Then we tu there very long and got to puishan’s wedding rehearsal 50 mins late. Well, it was okay only la. One thing I noticed is that everyone was at their usual stations.. ming yong upstair.s.. timothy at the door.. eunice at piano… chorale same ppl.. me with instruments during solemnisation. This could have been anybody’s wedding! I’m so guilty that I have a very flippant attitude towards the weddings already.. even though songs and messages don’t lose their meaning even if repeated 10000 times. Oh well.. I’m going to shower. All the TV shows in the US started! Prison break, heroes, the unit, stargate atlantis… haha.. I shall hold off until next year holidays then watch.. Or maybe I’ll just cut them out. Can’t watch everything.. its just too time wasting.

10 min!

Its funny how small things can really rock your boat for the longest time. Honestly its not really like.. amusing or what. Its just painfully eye-opening to oneself. A few questions surface:

1. What am I supposed to learn?
2. Am I ready for anything if I don’t learn it?