June 9th, 2007
Personal Blog
June 9th, 2007
Personal Blog
Well, just back from an extremely long and harrowing ride. It was torturous to be in the backseat of my brother’s car just from the shopping center in johor to home. After sending Cheryl home I could just stretch out on the back seat. I told them I felt like I was in economy class squeezed at the back.
June Camp 2007 wasn’t such a good time of rest. I felt my life simplify just slightly but still felt very fatigued! Other than the camp program, I fished and caught my first 2 fishes, ran on 2 mornings, took pictures at night and slept in the day. I ate a decent amount also, which reminds me to weigh myself.. let me do it before I forget.. Okay, I am now 93.7kg. I gained one while I was there, not too bad eh?
If there was anything I took home from all the messages in the last month by Dr. Innes it would be that the selfish life is the empty life. How true it is in my life. Each time I do something selfish I can just feel myself getting more and more empty and alone as if it wasn’t already bad enough. Also, alot of things he said Ialready knew or agreed with and just had trouple applying it and obeying. Its difficult to abase self and esteem yourself lower than others in every action. Also, my irritation and impatience has always been a defining trait in my character. Although I would differ on the view that it is the same as murder (because then it woud deserve the same punishment, which it doesn’t) I would agree that that is the slippery slope a person does not want to slide down because to say that one would never be able to sink to that level is a statement that is impossible to verify.
On the whole, I feel like I have just warped through a week of my life and came out just the same. Probably just abit more tired. I shall have to meditate on the week. YX is going away this coming tuesday.. so fast! Hmm.. photos when I can put them up. My bro took some fantastic HDR shots.
June 3rd, 2007
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Heh, was going through a drawer full of letters, gifts and stuff and read some old letters. Letters to friends, not so friends anymore, forgotten people, christmas cards and birthday cards. I think I like to remember things from the past. Keeping these things allow me to revisit the person I was so many years ago to see how far I’ve come, as well as to see how much the same I still am.
Letter writing is a forgotten thing. Back in the day, there was no direct means of communication with an individual you were interested in.. When I was interested in someone (haha.. I don’t even know where to start), calling up her house meant her mom or someone else might pick up or it was engaged or nobody was home. It was enjoyable to write because you would have a physical thing you could look at and enjoy. Also, you could re-read and look at it again when you wanted to. Oh well.. wonder if these things should change as time moves on, or are they things we should retain? heh… Anyway, I read things from so many people. Mainly those from sec sch. I have only thrown away my lower sec letters as they are something I don’t want or bother to remember. As for my upper sec, it was something different. I enjoyed my friends alot and until now we’re still in touch probably because they were christian and like sisters to me.
Anyhow, writing letters also enforced a slow moderated amount of communiation. Instead of torrents of messages through the day to each other, couples and friends led their own lives and did not spend too much time with each other. This allowed development of their own lives to move on at a healthy pace. Rushing into a relationship can be very damaging and unrealistic. Think of it as slowly unwrapping a gift or watching a TV show.. things need to be done in the correct way or else you’d just spoil it for yourself.
I shall take a picture of all my letters soon to see how much I have… haha.. I remember most of them were to bern and sy. Alot of christmas cards from church ppl.. Oh well. I’m out of time! Going to sleep.
June 2nd, 2007
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This guy was from so many years ago, when I was in sec sch when IRC was still in use and scripts that did funny things were so hot. The channels we used to hang out at like #ah-band and the band channel at #band on galaxynet. Haha.. makes me laugh. I wonder where he went? There were so many ppl there you didn’t really ever know at all, only as a nick which I can’t even remember a single one.. The birth of online, impersonal communication it was and I was there.
June 1st, 2007
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My blog that is.. see how skinny it is? haha.. Anyway, I have lost 2 or 3kg just by eating less. Average is 93kg already down from 95. haha..
