June Camp 2007
Well, just back from an extremely long and harrowing ride. It was torturous to be in the backseat of my brother’s car just from the shopping center in johor to home. After sending Cheryl home I could just stretch out on the back seat. I told them I felt like I was in economy class squeezed at the back.
June Camp 2007 wasn’t such a good time of rest. I felt my life simplify just slightly but still felt very fatigued! Other than the camp program, I fished and caught my first 2 fishes, ran on 2 mornings, took pictures at night and slept in the day. I ate a decent amount also, which reminds me to weigh myself.. let me do it before I forget.. Okay, I am now 93.7kg. I gained one while I was there, not too bad eh?
If there was anything I took home from all the messages in the last month by Dr. Innes it would be that the selfish life is the empty life. How true it is in my life. Each time I do something selfish I can just feel myself getting more and more empty and alone as if it wasn’t already bad enough. Also, alot of things he said Ialready knew or agreed with and just had trouple applying it and obeying. Its difficult to abase self and esteem yourself lower than others in every action. Also, my irritation and impatience has always been a defining trait in my character. Although I would differ on the view that it is the same as murder (because then it woud deserve the same punishment, which it doesn’t) I would agree that that is the slippery slope a person does not want to slide down because to say that one would never be able to sink to that level is a statement that is impossible to verify.
On the whole, I feel like I have just warped through a week of my life and came out just the same. Probably just abit more tired. I shall have to meditate on the week. YX is going away this coming tuesday.. so fast! Hmm.. photos when I can put them up. My bro took some fantastic HDR shots.