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7am - Went to church ultra early in the morn because Dency was going that way to school. Went there, wiggled the Bb and it got unstuck just like the piano tuner said! Anyway it needs alot more wiggling before it gets permanently unstuck

8am - Left car at church and took bus to temple there and ate breakfast with Zegang then went to his house and slacked

9am - Listened to Benny Ho again, 4 down, a few more to go in the series. Found out he’s from FCBC! haha.. ops.. his expository is quite sound as far as I have heard.

12noon - Went back to church and drove the 12 air mattresses to Josh’s place. wah.. its like.. maybe 20-30kg? goodness.. had to carry it up to his place

2pm - Ate lunch with josh, jan and zg. They’ve been married twice already.. haha.. 3rd times the charm!

3pm - Pick Dency

4pm - go YX’s house and filddle with some midi stuff. Wanted to input the whole piano score but the Saffire LE won’t output it! RAH! I think I’ll just have to ask Eunice to play it for me and I’ll record it once through

8pm - Go Sandra’s house. Watched deal or no deal while they played sudoku (supposed to be tuitioning la!)

1030pm - Home after some fries and ice cream with YX.

1159pm - finished this blog post! (its still 27th! argh! I’m going to quickly hit the publish button!)

Have you ever felt like reading and listening were no good and you can’t get anything in your head although you really wanted to? I feel like that now. Anyway, I’ve been listening to Benny Ho’s Workshop on the beattitudes one at a time.. I promise I’ll upload it! Its a really good exposition (up to the 3rd one at least) with such real application. I think poverty of spirit, mourning over sin and meekness are all missing from my life. What do you do when you realise that? haha.. Sigh.

Does Romans 7:20 really mean what it means? of course, must read in context la.. Romans 7:13-25

So interesting, Romans 9:17-18 talks about a question I had last time about the Pharaoh and how he had no choice when God decided to harden him to show his power. Romans 9:19 basically says “Wha! but thats not fair! how can any man not do what God makes him do?” and then Romans 9:20-33 is the long reply that is summed up as “God can do whatever he wants because he is God” Sounds mean but honestly quite true. If I made a nice model and decided to squash it I would have every right to do so.

Okay, other than the Focusrite Saffire LE

I bought a pair of earphones today.. goodness, they just sound so great! A pair of these MylarOne X3 earphones are relatively cheaper than anything that produce the same sound quality and insulation. Its so quiet in these earphones that you can’t hear anyone talk once you put them on and have some music coming out of them. The great thing about such a high amount of insulation is that it allows you to listen to your music at very much lower levels than normal so you don’t spoil your hearing. Here are some pictures..

Some days I feel lonely. If I never learn to live through it without running around trying to fill up the gap with anything other than God, I have this feeling these dreary trials will never stop. What about you? do you feel the same sometimes? heh.. if any of you have nothing to do you can come tell me you experience the same thing, it will certainly be very interesting to know.

This is about the first time I’ve set any goals for myself but I’m quite happy I did. Kinda makes me think about how what I’m doing now affects what I want to achieve in the future. You can check it out if you want. I’d actually be quite interested in what you have to say about it and perhaps maybe also be interested in looking at your own goals and compare it. I hope it helps me in my day to day decision making when I look at my longer term goals

This is turning out to be a long night after the previous 2 posts. Was just reading a blog I used to go to when I was still exploring the monetization of my online activities. He’s 35 in november and has hit his target of being his own boss by 35 when he started his own company in march this year. Its an SEO company with some web development stuff mixed in. He’s really good at what he does and has worked in amazon and microsoft in departments very similar to what he does in his own time. Considering he earns about just less than 1000USD a day from all his online activities combined, is that mad money or what? I mean.. Thats like about 30k USD, roughly 46000 SGD at the conservative exchange rate of 1.56 a month. Is that what life is all about? What would you do with 46k a month?

I admire him in a way for being so focused and hitting all his targets. Yet, I wonder if my life would ever mean anything to live like this. To devote every resource to create more resources to throw back into making more resources to spend on yourself. I’m really freaking out when I think about my future.. or “mirai” as it is in japanese. The honest fact is that I do want to earn. At the same time, I don’t want it to consume me. Money is like this monster you feed and grow and keep close to you and try to balance the feeding and growing with the risk of it growing so big it totally eats you up.

Where do I go and what do I do? When will I know and who’s going to be there with me? I see no job in my future, my skill sets are too shallow and diverse.

Anyway, I cleared out my table somewhat. In preparation to study study study. I’m going to sit down and set some goals for my life. Maybe in the next hour or the next day. Short and long term.

Come to think of it, I’m missing all three. I read Romans 6, Romans 7 and Romans 8 tonight.

Regret - When God’s word touches your mind.

Remorse - When God’s word touches your emotions.

Repentance - When God’s word touches your will.