Sigh, this is the first time I walked out of an ex…
Sigh, this is the first time I walked out of an exam hall early. Not just a little early, its one whole hour early. 1pm in, 230pm out. It was open book but previous years had a pretty extensive formula list behind, roughly 4 pages. This time they shaved it to 1 page of super basic formulas that any idiot would know citing that we could bring in the text book.
Fine, I should have bought one and I have the money to buy one. I didn’t want to because its such a hassle to try and sell it after using it for one sem. They aren’t very useful anyway. Argh. I’m feeling so fed up. I only did one out of 4 questions. This is so utterly hopeless, especially when you see the questions, know how to do them, but cannot remember any of the 39 useful formula you usually get from looking at any of the past 8 papers (4 years!!). Why why… I’m going to repeat so many modules I might as well have not been in school this sem. How to look forward when this paper is like one of the better ones? Tuesday’s one is like a total impossibility already. Do you know what is utter hopelessness and despair? This is it. I can’t face myself in the mirror already.. I don’t even feel like I’m looking at my own face. How come last time can now cannot? What worked before doesn’t any more?
I used to live without regret or apology. Now I realise that to live like this is to repeat mistakes. I don’t wanna study anymore. I really don’t want, but i have no choice. I’m going to be the unheard of 0.1% that doesn’t make it through uni education.