I have like.. a few thousand dollars of jewelry on…
I have like.. a few thousand dollars of jewelry on my table. Taking photos for a friend. I’ve never seen such big transparent rocks in my life!
Anyway, been thinking these couple of days about service and areas of ministry, gifts, and what we do as a church. Having a site, hosting seminars, conferences. The youth ministry especially. I’m wondering if what i’m doing is not what i do best. Or is it just because i don’t really like it as much? I think its great when you like what you do when you serve. Just that sometimes the line between liking it and service for God becomes blurred and you forget why you are doing it and you carry on doing it because you just like what you’re doing. At that point, what you “do for God” will simply burn in the end. Worthless hay and stubble.That so super scary. Your service and whole life’s work being worthless!! Its like working at macdonalds and after a whole day of hardwork you found out you actually are at KFC and are not on the payroll. Okay, lame. But you get it and its horrible la.
I was also thinking about recovering from sin and hasty words actions and thoughts. When I sin, i feel like i have to get it right and even beyond that, i have to lead a clean life for a while before i feel worthy to be in God’s presence again. I guess there are readers thinking the same of have felt that way before? Its so difficult! you feel like you’re reading a dead book. You don’t feel forgiven. You wonder if God already saw you falling again in the near future or you know you’re going to do it again sooner or later. Compromise, behave badly, let your moody indulgences take over. Sometimes the Grace and Consequence of sin overlap and confuse me. I know I’m forgiven before i sin, but what Faith do i have without works to show it? Man…
Anyhow, driving was great today. Seem to be able to make the car moove smoothly at will. Of course.. The first U-turn i did after not driving so long was terrible. haha.. I totally overshot and then didnt turn back the steering wheel early enough also. The subsequent ones were fine though. Today’s instructor was nice. He was just quiet, not gan cheong(esp when i was driving dangerously.. at least maybe i think passengers would feeel that way) and let me do my thing. even mistakes and all. Then after that just say abit. Monday’s my driving lesson and final theory test. I’m a half hearted driver… =\ drive so no need ppl to pick me here and there. I’m not even interested really. Can just take bus and taxi for the rest of my life. I’d really much rather a bike also but thats a big no no for my family. sian la.