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Well, as they say, for every mountain got another mountain thats higher right? In my case it for every grave got another grave deeper. I mean, it so totally clear. I’m not smart enough to pull through the next 3 years.

“you can do it”
“no problem one la”
“so many ppl can graduate, you also can one la”
“As long as work hard can sure can one”

Whats all that supposed to mean? I’m not being pessimistic here, i just won’t do well even if i do pull through. I’ve never had to study so hard in my life! and that doesn’t even seem to be enough. Well, i do have time i could use to study, but what would the rest of my life be without those times to bring me back to my lucid self? I don’t want to be a mugger! I DON’T EVEN THINK I COULD BECOME ONE IF I WANTED. Its all too depressing. Hope is lost, forsaken and snubbed out as of today. I’m half good at everything, and not great at anything. When the rubber meets the road, YH gets pwned.

Am i right to say Ms Chia has been sneaking by? say hello lah…

This is super weird, I feel my whole body and field of vision bobbing up and down. I think i’m going mad.

Prediction for phy: B-
Actual: tba

Now that i think of it, when i graduate i think i’ll be very VERY worried. One of my friends just finishing her studies this year. I think its so scary. To be in the real world, working, earning money. More responsibilities. Oh well…

Note to self: try not to start learning stuff when everyone else is revising it.

Julie-O!!

Something i heard during the cello concert i went on wed.

Been trying to study. Its just so hard! I’m all out of steam! Anyway, it was a quiet normal service today in the morning. A really heavy lunch at tung lok and then home i came. After that i’ve been at this phy paper for hours. Its just so incredibly hard to APPLY physical principles and formula’s you’ve learnt. Deravations and permutations of simple formulas which overlap one another through dfferent topics. Its not all easy.

Good friday
My heart and mind are numb.

The past is in the past, the new has come. All things old are dead, all things are renewed!

Sometimes asking for forgiveness doesn’t even feel enough. Its like a never ending cycle of hurt and healing, hurt and healing, hurt and healing. How much can a relationship with God take? Will he stay around forever… Don’t we apologize to people we’ve hurt? Should the offender expect to be accepted? My heart and mind are numb. Why don’t I care when i really should?

I hear the Savior say,
“Thy strength indeed is small,
Child of weakness, watch and pray,
Find in Me thine all in all.”
Jesus paid it all, all to Him I owe;
Sin had left a crimson stain,
He washed it white as snow.

Aye, I feel nothing.. nothing.. thats just bad.