August 5th, 2004
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wah lau.. summex.. was… terrible.. horrible.. tiring.. unbelievable.. torturous.. painfull..
bah… and its only half the intensity of the usual courses cos we only did 8 crash actions… (thats the one-and-a-half-minute-bomb-must-fire-off thing) usually they do 16 at 3 different locations. Man… after one day in the hot sun, at night get attacked by more mosquitos than you can find at reclaimed land man! Had to kick the stoopid men around cos they all so-fat-cannot-make-it-attitude-bad-lazy-unfit-unintelligent. Okay lah.. not all, but only 1 or 2 are exceptions. Instructors wanna prove to me the rocky ground can dig, try a while, find out that its really too hard to dig then say “good luck” tell us go dig sommore. wah lau… crash action was absolutely the worst already… can you imagine pushing this thing thats about slightly less than half the weight of a car around 100 meters then digging a hole to put it in 8 times? 8 times! ‘only’ is wad the instructors said.. cos most courses do it more than 10 times. Then nvm about putting it into the hole… wait until you have to get it out when they see timing cannot make it… the stoopid thing dun budge. Esp after you’ve been digging the whole night and got no strength. All this and hot sun will just kill… argh… it was horrible… ppl just come back and have no disagreement its the worst thing they’ve been through in their entire army life. Wah lau… only 36 hrs become lidat, imagine 60 hours. Sigh… its just a bad dream now. body aching is the only reminder.
August 2nd, 2004
Personal Blog
Smoke and mirrors.. the elusive truth.
Bahh… been at it for a whole day and still dun get it. When i’m not having ops order, selecting baseplate positions, marking out my map, preparing my stuff, washing clothes, bathing or eating, i’m obsessed with it. The solution seems simple, the honest truth just beyond my grasp - A wisp of smoke i cannot hope to catch. Man… sometimes i feel like if i manage to grasp the smoke, work it out, i’ll get a stroke cos its just beyond my capabilities to logically reasoning things out. Its like lifting a heavy lid off a container of understanding thats so heavy i’d break my back doing so. worse still, in the end i still wouldn’t be able to understand anything. Am i that limited? nvm, got a 36 more hours before i return to camp. Abandon reason? no… Theres something i don’t see, understand or maybe i’m just seeing it from a wrong perpective. I MUST UNDERSTAND, simple as that.
Tomolo going for summary exercise, wadever we learned all inside. I’m not too busy actually, just hope not to do anything wrong and get scolded for nothing.
August 2nd, 2004
Personal Blog
Hmp, been some time. I din blog over the weekend cos i spent the whole saturday sleeeeeeeeping until 1 pm. Straight away went out until night time, spending the evening staring into the window panes of the esplanade library that frame our beautiful city. Makes a good picture but had no camera… Went to billy bombers after that, they serve good burgers. Quite expensive but authentic loh… medium done pattie… egg, bacon, ham, cheese. about the size of your palm and 2.5 inch thick. Will have to go back there man…… realy sooon….. =>
Today’s basically a slack day. Just go out recce baseplate positions… heh, i got no appointments!!! FOR THE FIRST TIME IN ANY COURSE! really good loh. Must be they think i cannot make it then dun bother to put me in… => night time ammo ic! wah lau… can sleep in the tonner. Only 3 misions. Hopefully thursday morn storm like mad then dun need to do crash action. And tuesday night hope the OC mood is good, ha… the codeword to make us move to alt locations is aptly assigned as “disco”. So if we disco the whole night like the last course did, its “not so good” lah…
just got summoned back to lecture room for dunnoe wad sai kang… sigh.
tbc