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Spent a saturday out… With lena ben bro dency tim tim lee sharon zhaoru dawn. Ate at food court.. then went to swensens to eat ice cream. bought a pig for Shuyi…

nice? haha.. so cute. oh well, i’ve got nothing better to do. My money seems to be running out loh… eat out too much. I’ve spent alot on canteen and all also. sigh… owe myself money i think.

Help, think my mind is upside down. i actually dreamt one of my compassvale students was my PC and we were on a mission in some urban area in FBO attire. Then… wait a moment.. this is a SHE i’m talking about.. and even better, her size is like.. about cheryl size? just abit thicker. still thin though. Then was throwing out orders and all. all in the space of an hour long nap in the nursery in church. I was so tired i went upstairs and flopped onto the floor witht that comfortable red matress and slept away… =>

Bliss

Recruits field camp starts on monday. Stupid CO made us stay outfield for 7 days.. cannot come back sleep. Wah lau… sian. so now i preparing all the comfors to bring outfield… pillow, hammock, wet tissue and all… haha, so dumb. i wanna be shiok outfield loh.blah. going to be real tired now… but somehow my eyes just became okay already. hmm… shall rest in a while. until next week! ->

Had range for the past 2 days and had a really messed up conducting officer. So slow… the instructors not enough to change over… basically we started shooting at 10 in the morn until 0030 the next day. and we never got to rest. Only an hour for dinner and lunch added together. Thats 14 hours on our feet and screaming and shouting at ppl. Once again one idiot made me come out my 100% power… silenced the whole range for about 20sec… They dun even realise how dangerous they are. Point here point there, do things without waiting for command. Wanna smack them. Somehow i think the earplugs are not meant to protect the ears, its more like to prevent the brain from leaking out. Even then some recruits come without bringing the brain along. Must be at the ammo point never wear earplugs then the brain all leak out.. haha… okay.. lame. Having trouble with my throat, shout abit too much but can feel my voice coming back. By field camp should be okay already then can shout at them..

Hmm… basically after these 2 days i only got 8hours of sleep in total. tired tired… later going back at 3pm.

I’ve cooled down but.. still not happy w you. Seems like i’m doing things just to NOT do wad you want me to do. Thats just terrible. Esp when i might just want to carry on with my life and do things right. I’m enjoying the quiet though… I’m just a shell now, living one day at a time… waiting for my ORD to show me that looking forward to something for 2 years will actually lead you to disappointment. what will i do without all my friends there? Sommore as we all grow older all our forms of entertainment get more and more diff. Its tough being a lao(3) jiao(4) there loh… have to teach the newbies wad to do and all. Feel i’m just to ignorant about so many things and incapable comepared to the 26th batch. When they go i’m gonna be lost. Now with the 5 day working week we gonna have lotsa night training and then book out on friday as early as 2pm loh… so good life. as for work hours becoming extended to 6, it makes no diff… I work almost 24/6 already, wun understand wad the fuss is about.

church in 2 days =\ well, can meet up with yc then. Ppl keep hankering after what they cannot/will not/should not have.. Poor thing.. go UK already then her prospective bf stays here in sg.. then when she comes back he’ll go. then it’ll be about 6 years loh =|. wah lau.. sad thing. only 24 more days before she leaves.. Hope can settle everything before then.

Happy i can be back home in all this mess. I’m going to be “as is”… nothing going to change

Its got nothing to do with anyone but…

“Though i may never understand,

i’ll trust with all my heart.

And from the course that you have planned

i never want to part.

In searching for Your way and wisdom,

Teach me if You would.

That for all time, in every place,

My God is good..”

And though i see it, understand it and sing it again. I still want to wander away. I might be back, but… i just want to run away for now. And when i run i hope i’ll find something that i’m looking for. I have to wait till end sept though.. and if my resolution does not change then so shall it be.

Anyway, i’m back cos i cannot stay in camp already. Too depressing, must come out unwind. I like my platoon instructors very very much. But most of them only got about 100 days left to clearing leave.

blah.. i’ve to go back now =

HA! Finally! Got my ORD timer to work. Stupid way to spend an afternoon. So stupid, have to be the book in DI… 930 go there with the rec book in. Tomolo hopefully dun scream again, if not have to put all those lozenges to use. I can’t sing properly already. Voice sandy, cannot hit the whole middle range at all… cannot hit any low notes accurately. bahh.. oh well.

Trying to put up an interesting comic strip on my news ticker box… see if can..

Naruto is getting interesting.. well, have to wait another week for another chapter to be out. Then full metal alchemist is on hold cos of olympics loh… sai… 2 weeks no anime already. Can die.

Eyes all red.. so tired i can drop in front of the comp now. Will have to go rest. wish i had a low level bed… climbing up and down is quite irritating. But must think of the greater good this creates, more space and stuff. Oh well…

Blah.. saw yao hua just now and gave him his slippers. He’s now in echo coy… Those guys make him look small man.. haha. Sigh, i spent the whole day screaming. being very angry. When i’m nice they take addvantage… so stupid. i hate it. then must scold, tekan scold tekan scold tekan.. sian… i hate having this kind of intstructor/trainee relationship. Not any fun. I’ve never been this pissed off before and i dun think its going to get any better anytime soon. Wah… so angry with them until just blast the idiot upside down. My shouting not as loud as before, think need to heal up before my next DI duty, can shout louder. Then the smokers just steal each others cigarettes from the box without permission. one guy come and tell me he missing more than 10 sticks. Ridiculous. Thats like more than $4 worth of smokes. Such theivery is unacceptable. Drilled holes in the wall of my plt office. Think we are getting along quite well as a dysfunctional family, like it. The neat freak guy is quite nice. Hmmm… only 298days to ord. (get my recruits to update a board daily with all our ord dates).

okay.. the mess guys are closing up. Waiting for me. sigh… i wanna stay abit longer but cannot.

Finaly got some rest cos going to watch some laming infantry parade in loyang. Wah… body feels like crap, haven’t been sick in a long long time. If tomolo after parade still sick then i’m going to see david ong… haha.. but so reluctant to take, cos i’ve got duty then looks like i siamming lidat. ooo… just feel like… somebody’s… slow motion.

Went out with jc classmates again last saturday. Yurika came back… so had another gathering. they go lau pa sat and the food was not good, quite jialat actually. Then we sat there until about 10 lidat… after that started coming home.

This too…

oh well… it was just abit fast the way time passed. We all took mrt and i was the last to drop off. Talked and talked and talked to eugenia, mark and brain. Then he abit left out cos he transferred out after 3 mths to HCJC.

Oh well… i’m feeling bettter already. Dunnoe why. Maybe its the medicine? i’m still hot though. WOnder how i can fall sick so fast… that corner of the office is really cursed… slept only an hour there on the mattress then fell sick. cannot imagine how dirty it actually is. Lalala… i haven’t slept earlier than 12 for… a good 4 months, now its 2029. Shall break the pattern and go sleep 10 hours. I hope i wake up fine, but if not fine also can cos i dun mind staying at home. Buying a 256 mmc card for my phone at $60… can stuff lotsa stuff inside after that => then can have more games music, videos…hahha… field camp wun be so bad. I was printing something… then the conversation was something like that.

*some stuff about games, n-gage phones*

“eh, i wann aget a 512 for my phone, 256 very small. You wanna take?”

“home much?”

“$60″

“okay..”

“then set..”

thats how the transaction went. Haha… so to the pt. oh well.. wanna sleep.

actually no… dowan to sleep, but no choice. =P

Bear - FHM FHM FHM!! hahaha.. i’ll make it an exception and buy!

SL - Here your sec sch band career ends! so exciting.. can move on already

Darrell - Uh… save some of your money lah, not good to be in debt, christians shldn’t be in debt. haha… really!

YX - uh huh… dun “NO” loh… you yawny sleepy thing. haha… envelopes was overkill… ops.. heh.

PK - uh… how come study so hard ah? wah.. scary. its still 2 months away… maybe shld step up abit only and dun burn out.

anyone else - Hope you had a nice time here. I’m fine. Happy abit… =>

Being back in tekong is nice… nvr noticed how nice this island was, windy and cool at night… bunk at seaside. Been so caught up with i-diots here that i din even notice. =>

Well, just finished sigapore i-diot, gonna go back rest. Its abit late and i’m the duty instructor tomolo. Take care ppl..