here i am again, staying out cos i’m at khatib unt…
here i am again, staying out cos i’m at khatib until wed… i like staying out but this is real far man… took a whole hour just taking bus from AMK… weird, i could not find the 39 bus stop so i just took mrt. bahh.. Well, apparently i just went can.com.sg and found that it was about 200m down the road. How was i supposed to find that man… aiyah, heard it can get there in 30min. tomolo will have to go early just in case… rot in the canteen until someone opens the classroom door. Its like a small lt with a screen in front… nice new zealand scenery, a picture of wad you see when you call for fire. Then you sorta give adjustments and all, see where the bomb lands.. Stupid waste of time for us specs cos we’ll never have to do that job loh. Just sit there and look like you know wads going on.. abit lame lah.
I’m happy i’m alive, are you?
“Love those given to you. The ones you don’t choose and might not even really want - such as your family. Because agape-ing is really choice. To feel that some are easier to agape than others, simply means its really not agape love.”
“If agape-love is deficient in the home, it is deficient everywhere else. Where did God send the church to look, when looking at a man of God for their church? He sent the church to his home life. Timothy 3:4-5: “One that ruleth well his own house, having his children in subjection with all gravity; (For if a man know not how to rule his own house, how shall he take care of the church of God?)” ”
Think the above also emcompasses the duties of a son/brother. Not just a husband or father.
oh well… just read it somewhere. Anw.. i believe only God can possess agape love while man can only have a high amount of phileo (a heart-felt or spontaneous love; an affectionate love) in his fleshly state. However… i also believe that the template of love in Corinthians 13 is not un-attainable, nor is perfection un-attainable too. Just not in our flesh thats all. We are to love God with a love thats sooooooo great, that in an exagerrated comparison, the love we show our families would look insignificant, or as the bible puts it, make it look like hate. its like saying our planet is huge…. but the universe is definitely bigger. Not too hard to understand there…
I’ve been having a whole lot of idle thought, the hum sup kind. hahhaa… now how many self respecting guys actually would say that.. but i somehow don’t care anymore about how ppl see me. Its importance to me has diminished so much when i note how my bestest friends don’t shift when they see me inside out. The ones that do go away shld do so and stay where they are.. Hmmm… all this reading about love has shown me how much i haven’t really acheived with ppl. As in… don’t think about those ppl you have no feeling for… how about those you hate? or are somehow born and enplaced in your life just to cause difficulty and pain… hahaha… sigh. too many faces pop up until i dunnoe where to start with this one. Esp in a heirachy bound organization.
TBC
See lah, i’m lost… shld have continued it when i was hot just now. Anyhow just wrote what i felt already, just a reaction. Twitch of the finger.
Oh man… do you realise we are not part of our own solution to our own spiritual problems? like… we don’t even belong in the equation. When we actually do try and stuff ourselves in… it dun balance! and it dun work out… some realy interesting food for thought today… hmm. i feel so holy suddenly. For someone who thinks hum sup things through the day. hahaha… oh well… guys will be guys.