14th May 2008
June 16th, 2004
Well.. haven’t slept. will go to camp and just die down there. its only 4 more hours before i have to wake.. so little. Mind has relaxed. Theres this tom fettke CD called “calvary’s love” its beautiful. beautiful. beautiful.
June 16th, 2004
man, i just feel like my mind has been wrung! WRUNG! i need a smoke… right… its just so tense. i can even feel it physically. Like a very small cap is being shrunken on my head. argh… stooopid bw! When you offer the chance on a platter, i just cannot pick it up. I need a break! a break! a kit kat.. man.. i can even find an opening for mirth.
sl- I’m sorry for that.
BW- I’m sorry for (another)that, too. Your offer though alluring, cannot be taken for all the reasons i work with ppl i dun like so much. But who cares who i like or dun like anyway. I don’t live for man, or at least thats how i would like to live.
*hmmm…
June 16th, 2004
Oh man! my holidays are over!! found out today i’m supposed to start working tomolo already. Such horrible news that is, was just starting to feel like a civilian all over again. Wonder why have to go back… we’ve got really nothing much to do, just some stores we have to settle. The new intake might be pushed back 2 weeks, or end 2 weeks early due to the reduction in national service time. Anyway is good for me, i have to go for mortar course on the 28th of this month. Won’t be seeing those ladies until i get back 7th august, hope my course is stay out! haha.. but then again its in jurong, pretty far loh.. come home also sian. And we got new specs!!! hahahahahhahahahahahhahahaha… more ppl to share our sorrows with. Too bad they all ch 8 one, i’d like another few ch5 leh… i nobody to talk to loh.
Hmmm… my life is still stable, no ridiculous things happening. Thank God for that. Today the guy i replaced on sunday almost refused to acknowledge that that was his duty i replaced.. blah… duty is such a sensitive topic, make ppl fight and argue. Then another thing is money… goodness, can borrow until 2.5k ridiculous! then they were shouting in the corridor, so ugly one.
ops… got dinner appt, cannot stay and rattle on. so sian, cos of going back to camp cannot meet ne and na. this sucks man… and then nu is working, blah… poor no. But can go for class gathering on sat eve, ha! thats enough i guess. cannot ask for too much. Thats it.. maybe tonight i’ll visit agaain. I think my tag board is getting out of hand here but.. haha… its funny. just dun start typing things that are not so nice lah.. i dun have an ex, better keep quiet ah you
June 15th, 2004
man, I ord 2mth earlier!!!haha… dunnoe lah, not really happy or anything. The place i love to hate has ppl i do actually like, and i wouldn’t mind being with them if not for… certain other not so nice ppl. Today was slack but tiring. kept sleeping and sleeping… woke up so early to go Oswald’s grandma’a funeral, then headed to my changi house to pick up the binneys to lunch and airport. Ate at this vietnamese restaurant at the siglap row of shophouses. The chilli was so hot i was melting all over… really really face all wet. Shoot.. i mean, i can eat chilli and like it but i just start to sweat when i do. Told them its one place i’ll never bring a girl. hahah… start melting when i eat loh.. so unglam. Anyways it was me, bro, dency, cheryl, lena, lydia at one table and the adults at the other.. had fun. Quite enjoyable lah.. After that went to airport. Think the binneys have nvr had so many ppl send them off. cos they said usually its just them. Then after they said that even more ppl started coming and coming.
Well.. just got news i’m supposed to go back to tekong tomolo at 930 for a stupid briefing on the early ORD thing… wah lau! i was looking forward to slacking the whole day. Sian… dunnoe brief for wad also. wait until another day wad.. make everyone on lull come back. Nuts. Now must wake at 7.
Sigh, i’m in abit of trouble already eh.. hahaha… no spoilers i hope. lalala.. but its out of my control so no pt fretting. que sera sera…
beautiful day. just tiring.
dtl- We’ve come a long way
dt- Hmm… better wake up your idea loh, cannot believe so many ppl are bothered about you. ha… actually more cannot believe ppl are bothered about me. but yeah.. hey, talk to you some time. I hope you read this.
chari- uh… sounds like cherry… eee… only 2 more weeks! back to sch man… muahhaaha…
sl- Right now.. you are slacking at chalet just down the road, dunnoe wad sec sch KIDS find so fun about that. haha…
gf- ops… haha… i think someone found out about my happiness
June 14th, 2004
man… did guard duty as an instructor and it was so slack!!! i could do it lidat again!~ We draw rifle, ammo… go back office… then 2hrs up go back to guard room. then 4 hrs sleep… repeat 4 times and you have wad i did that day. finished up my gundam also.
Astray red frame
yeah… those are not mine, just pictures ripped off the net. but you get the idea. sigh.. bored. Shld go paint it up!
June 11th, 2004
Just came back from camp, like it very much. No emotions attached to the whole experience at all, just decisions made. Think its been a nice wake up call for more than a few ppl i bother about. Haha… others dun wake up i guess. Hmmm… other than that, had a good time doing nothing… the entertainment value of the place was very low… and thats wad i liked about it, theres nothing to do - I think it helps people focus better. Well… strangely i dun have much to say generally.
sl - happy birthday! well.. i hope your new beginning is a lasting one!
gf - haha… addidas, nike, **t******… whats next? and dun eat so much ah!
June 4th, 2004
Marriage seminar 1st half just finished acouple of hours ago. Went to eat tang yuan and stuff at chomp chomp. I keep getting scolded for being big sized by my pc. How am i supposed to help that? At least i dun fail my ippt..
Anyway, its only 1 day to camp! goodness… dun feel like a camp to me. how how how… like so fast come man. I wonder why i wanna go so badly, cos i cannot think of any reason at all. Yet i’m trying so hard to go.. why? haha… wierd. I’m tired… haven’t recovered from 24k yet, was rudely awoken for some retarded reason this morning. Well, we’ll all catch each other in camp. See ya then…
June 1st, 2004
okay… I realised maybe after a good sleep that that was terribly indulgent. sinful. Well, i ain’t reading no note. Think its something bad i dowan to read, looks long though.. Sorry to waste your effort.
Well, today’s a waking up day. Think the messages were all what i needed to hear about myself and my behaviour. I mean… haha… everything i screamed out at yesterday night was addressed so aptly in an unhurting and almost calm manner. I think maybe i was abit too uspet about at getting a duty and all, its more than that. I have not realised so many things about life and people in general- i feel like an idiot.
Well, that aside… Taking down notes with a 6600 is quite interesting. its pretty fast but makes you look like you are continually msging during the sermon, keeps you awake too. Sommore can just back it up when the phone gets full. Can bring everywhere (well.. in case of the miniscule possibility i want to read it) and can send it here and there. Hmmm… Never regret buying that hunk of a phone. Its so good to use. Haven’t presented real problems to me yet. EVERYONE SHLD GET A 6600!!!! haha.. but thats just me =>
*thank God for idiots who never give up on me.
**thank God for idiots who make my life difficult.
***thank God for not zapping down idiots like me.
inadequate
undeserving
