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hi, i followed this guy go the main building use net. Its about 12 here… which is lightsout on sat, usual day is 2200. They been watching movies since evening… i slept from 1900-2100 after dinner which was pretty good. the food is the normal stuff, buffet kind of thing… very good. The instant noodles here is 75c a packet… ONE packet. the guys who run out are quite desperate for it already. Tomorrow we book out to go town buy stuff, can get my calling card then. Heard the punks here really don’t like asians… haha, can throw milkshake at one of the guys in the previous course. the older people are fine, cos we are where alot of their money comes from. The town is so small you can’t do anything without someone else knowing. I like it here… just not looking forward to flying. nono… not what i meant. I mean, i’m not looking forward to getting scolded in the air. yeah… aiyah, so late already… its like 0015 here… i’m supposed to be sleeping.. but this guy beside me like no signs of stopping… well, they still order pizza and all. heard its nice… wah lau, i’m tyoping like nuts… wanna go back quick… need to sleep cos the whole flight din sleep. only took 2 naps just now.. one before dinnner, had ppl bang on my door for sometime before i woke(whoops…) then after dinnner slept and missed my course ic briefing(not impt lah… but scully next time miss impt thing i die). well well… i’m finally here… i feel like i just went to some camp, don’t feel very far away. until next time…

ho… only 2 more days. Managed to get off from 3 onwards only… not enuf leh, go cmpb then come back almost 5 already. I also managed to get a knife… Thank God…

Man, I really really don’t like the seniors at AFS already… They are so picky man… i mean, fine lah… some dope walk into the bwc room without greeting ANYONE. Then whole lot kena meh? It sounds individualistic and anti-team spirit, but i can give it another name, called resposibility for your own actions (in this case, non-actions). stupid ah… then scold scold scold… something wrong. Got 3 white bar then think they so big… wait kena chop i laf at them. Overrate themselves… anyhow, got a chance to swim today. i dived in… then 3 min later lifeguard chase all out cos got dark clouds. well… at least i got in. sigh… my life is “more interesting than most of my frenz” as someone said. But i find it really hard not to be bored and sianz of it.

“I’m not here for nothing”

ARGH! teo arrow all the way down here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! crap…

At Air Force School again honing the finer points of taking cover here. Library is nice, got computers to come online and all… best is wun get arrowed for sai kang… Took morning off to sign deeds so woke up a little later than usual. The seniors here getting abit ridiculous… Now we have to get here at 730 in stead of 740… which is already 20 min early. Say we ill disciplined and all, nvr greet tehm blah blah…. the thing is we greet them 100x then either din see them or din notice and one time din greet… then as good as we nvr greet them before. its only cos this one guy din greet once then lidat leh, this morn lucky not here… if not have to have my ears bent for 20 min listening to lecture. dunnoe wad thier prob man… quite sick of it… anyhow today looks like a good day.. i’ll finally have my chance to swim. I just hope i can safely hide here until 3.

Just had a thought last two days. My life has been a bed of roses. I have not had a big upset or failure before. I have always made it through, i have always got what i want, and things have always turned out good for me. haha… wonder if this is the first time i’m gonna fail at something. God has been very good to me my whole life, just thankful. pri 6, din study much also got to ahs. Then got to sec 2 because teacher moderate. Sec 3 din retain, i studied. sec 4 got 8 pts but din go vj cos i thot wanted to do MEP. Then o levels get 11… not enuf to stay in vj if i realy went there, and after being kicked, i’d have not enuf to go tj… so going to tj was a very very good call… then made it thru jc with an A A C, B3 for gp. Really smooth sailing life… I’m really thankful that its been so easy for me. No doubt God’s hand was in my life.

This time i just don’t know if i can tahan being in army for 2 years without rank doing my basic wing course, another 3 doing my advanced wing course. Then finally going out to uni to be old man there and study again. I really don’t care about the money…. hasn’t even crossed my mind when signing. I don’t assign alot of value to money, but i onlly know more is better than less. I dowan to get get some detachement to some far away country… so sianz…

aiyoh… links i too lazy to make leh… some time when i’m super free…

ooo… at air force sch already. Really quite different from cmpb. Its just as slack but got so much to study and learn! checks and procedures are ridiculous… can’t even manage a simple radio transmission(r/t) without messing up. wonderful part is, nobody teaches you squat… all go read urself and ask ur frenz. Then theres this mock up of a cockpit instrument panel… a cardboard with pictures with control stick/rudders and all. I’m really having trouble with one… how bout this… “academy ops harrier XX(ur instructors number), 2POB (persons on board), ramp out XX(minutes of time) for training area 1.5 hrs” repeat like mantra also cannot get into my head. sigh… the guys there say like free one man, anytime they test here test there… nuts man… make me so stress. the course got so many interesting ppl… got those naval diver then he got so much story about the hell week… haha, 40ppl squeeze in toilet during toilet break so can sleep. so duh.. 5 ppl one cubicle and someone is inside actually shitting… man… then got officers and all so we not so cohesive. aiyah.. so late… i need to sleep, just went for st pats band concert… they quite decent, but abit boring…

Hmmm, haven’t been here in some time. I’m still at recruitment centre, just learning the finer points of taking cover. There’s just alot of stupid stuffs to do sometimes. Found out today that i’m probably leaving for air force sch on 14th sept. Thats really quite soon… then leave this bunch of guys again for a whole new group of people. Its really quite sian to keep moving around lidat but i guess its part of life. I’m really not thinking about what to do if i really make it… I sort of don’t really know what to do so i’m going with the flow. I just hope God chops me if its not my cup of tea… i dowan to be something i dowan to be for a whole decade… yes, makes it sound longer.

Anyway, chanced upon a pilots blog.. he’s prob my age and all… finished and passed air grading… over here. sort of interesting to read all that. Get to know what i’m doing… Then again, i’m not looking forward to ocs if i do make it. Wah piangz… my life has hit a flatline again.

I miss civillian life lah… i think thats just it. I sort of sian when ppl can just carry on with their lives and do what they like, not tied down or wad. Well, until next time… Waiting for gundam seed 43 to dl finish.